Wedding Dinner @ Sri Petaling

We spent around 4 hours doing hair at the saloon
HAHA...y so long???
Boz 3 person doing together and not alot of ppl working there
One hairstylist and one assistant did for 3 of us
I did colour and treatment, my mum did colour and also curl her hair, my auntie did colour, curl her hair and also treatment
That's y we spent so long time there,
HAHA..another day of not working ( not i don't wan to work, everyone changed my appointment time)
Besides colour and treatment, i aslo did curl my hair for fun (just for the wedding dinner and to suit my dress )
I really like to ban leng leng go out for party...
I NEED PARTY.....to enjoy my life
of coz...today i still miss him....
keep hoping he still with me.and he can see how pretty am i
As usual, i will ask him... 'whether today i pretty or not??'
HE will answered me ' Pretty, in my heart u r my princess.'
But, now...i really hope he still feel the same
Wishing the best everyday
Just saw his fb's pic and all his outing, i know he will update in his blog too
Hope to know more about him, i miss him so much...
Hope i wont hurt or sad after reading his blog ..BE STRONG

Let's look at what i took on the wedding dinner :

1st :

This was the menu we had, not so clear but better than cant see :)




Most of the food i didnt take down , boz we were too hungry boz the dinner started at 9 plus
Sometime boz i forgot to take down the pic for the food


2nd:

Pictures with baby

( baby don't wan let me hug and take pic, he wan fatter ppl..HAHA...his parent said so)

like i am forcing him to take picture with a leng lui..HAHA

Pictures with cousin



Just tell us...Pretty or not..?? HAHA

My brother with the baby :



My mother with the baby :

Prefect picture...he so guai to let my mother hug :)

3rd
My cousin's pic

Sweet Sweet Sweet




4th:

After all this..of coz if i didnt finish up my battery of my camera i wont be happy
HAHA..
So, i camwhore all the time in the room
Hopefully dont look too bad :)
Just show one first




Updated my own pic soon..
Tired
I wan to edit with frame before posting :)

Another..LAZy day

OMG..today didnt work again :(
Didnt meet anybody for case open
But, i went out with Winnie to find out the stocks for my on9 shopping website
I saw some that i really LOVE..but really expensive
I really wan to success in my on9 shopping website, boz i dont wan let him thk i alw do half way
I wan to continue our love with this website
We opened that together, and i hope it will continue forever

Today is the sushi king's day with rm2 for all the sushi
Last year i went with HIM and i enjoyed so much with all the sushi we ate
But this year he went without me,
I still remember we lined up outside the sushi king for almost one hour on that time
But, for me ..i dont thk that was long, boz he beside me
I really enjoy doing all the thing with him
When i heard of this sushi king thing, the first thing came out my mind was him
I know he went there with his mother at leisure mall's sushi king
I wish i am there also, but of coz...that is impossible at this moment :(
Really everything in my mind all related to him
I MISS HIM

Anyway, hope everyone will support my on9 shopping business
so that, i will continue our love forever with no ending

Have new bag :)

This is the bag, but mine different colour :)
My one is in BROWN
Actually not mine..HAHA
My mother bought for herself, but i always take hers when i like it
HAHA..
Like few handbag she bought i took it and put in my room, until now she never use it
I am the one who using all those bags
SO, actually indirectly all the bags belong to me
At least today something make me happy
GOD BLESS

Trying hard to start my new life

Today will be the day i follow my plan not to keep in touch with him anymore
Although my heart very pain and i really miss him deeply until now, but i need to follow my plan till the time i can really put him down
( boz i guess this is the best way to be his true friend again in the future, mayb in the future we will back together again boz of fate.....I wish to)
Wish everyone will wish me all the best on this
I wish the end, me n him will be best friend last time at least
I really lost of focus on my work for this 2 days
I will be disappointed my manager if she know i such a failure like this boz of all the emotional feeling
I HAVE to go back working hard on tomorrow n TRY my best to get over with him
N keep telling myself....i will treat him as friend
( n i guess my another part of my mind or heart will be hoping him to come back....)
Tomorrow will be his birthday and i decided not to wish him
But, i will wish him in my heart 'HAppy Birthday Dear'
Really will support him in everything through my true heart
I have to BLOCK him on msn in order to fulfill the 'no contact rule' with him
If i am ready i will start to be his friend again
HOpe he wont mind i sudd lost of control again and do all this stupid things again while he alr start accepting me as friend
(boz i really scared in the future i will do something to make him further away from me while i am not ready yet. I learnt alot of other ppl articles and comments from internet, hope all those will be helping me around with this)

Really need support from everyone on this period of time
Hope everyone will pray for me with my this decision :)
Of coz i believe my cousin and best friends will support me in this.
Thanks alot *muacks*

* wont be updating about the Generation of Life Part 3 till my mood toward that post back
* I really HATE my lost of focus on my work and everything..i dont wan to screw up my life boz of him, but he himself living so happily now. I wan to make him happy to know i aslo happy boz i grow mature all boz of him.
* sudd hav such decision also boz i listen to a client i just met saying ' dont ever listen to anyone, just follow whatever u like to do..this will be helping u to get back urself'. I have 2 signals to tell me to using the no contract rule today, so i need to use it and i wish it helps me along my way.

Generation of Life Program - Part 2

Second : The song about father

When the song played for the first time, i dont really have a very big feeling
but after the 'teacher' said something after it played, then only i started IN the song when it played the 2nd time.

My mind :

Remind me of my dad's love when he concerned me when i had my skin allergy and also when i argued with him on the phone 'when i heard he said {break up} and i cant accept he going to leave me alone behind' just the day before my graduation. I really have the phobia toward the graduation ceremony. From last time until now i dont really can feel the love from my dad and i also thought i dont really love my dad so much also. Until the song come in my mind, i felt actually my dad love me so much but just he dont really know how to express it out to me.

Still remember on that night i argued with him on phone.
I was so sad and my feeling uncontrollable till my dad heard of my voice.
He came in n took my phone away n talked to him.
Really sorry to him, i dont know my dad will take my phone away from me and talk to u.
Hope u can forgive him, boz he actually just love me and dont wan see i hurt.
Boz when my dad came in my room, so obvoius my eyes were red and my feeling was bad till the max
THe end, my dad also told me that if got anything must tell us, dont alw keep inside
But, the end i didnt tell my dad anything boz i keep everythg inside my heart
I really sorry to my dad i bluff him so manytimes boz of HIM. I know HE scared of my dad, in order to make HIM happy and comfortable, i will be the one who bluffing my dad and i go find him till late night n go his house.
SORRY DADDY...i know u love me
I know my dad actually accept HIM and let me go out with HIM most of times
During CNY also my dad willing to let HIM drive our car and follow our family members for lunch at somewhere. This shown my dad actually treated him as part of our family,also but everything alr past and HE already gone far far far away

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Third : The song about husband and wife

I thought i dont have any feeling when they played the song boz i aso not yet married and i dont hav bf also.

but, HIS face came out on my mind.
Really wan to know why is it like this on that moment.
I guess should be boz of the lyrics actually about how husband and wife happy together till the end and the wife will alw beside the husband no matter how the husband treated her.
Besides that, the most important sentence ' Husband will wan the wife to go to the heaven first before he left to the heaven boz he dont wan to see the wife crying sadly when he gone first'
This sentence remind me of HIM deeply , he did say the something same as this before to me. No matter how ' he will wan me to go to the heaven first before he leave me, boz he know i will be sad n crying every moment if he leave to the heaven earlier than me'. Till now, this sentence still stick in my mind, but i guess he alr forgot whatever he said to me.


My mind:

I really put my heart inside that relationship, so when he said he going to leave me, i cant accept it.
I will want to say sorry to HIM toward unaceptable break up. SORRY..i really not mean to trouble u when u alr dont need me anymore. really sorry for everything i did in the past.
For me, in the song make me realised actually i really think he will be my future husband and we will live together forever.
That's y no matter what he wan i will give as he wish. Remember i used to very 'manja'???
But i changed for HIM, Really appreacited u changed my bad habit.
Athough that time i not change immediately, alot of unhappy incidents happen before i fully changed my this bad habit, but i still hope he can feel how much effort i put in to change myself as he wish.


when on my way back to home, i was so depress and sad boz of the journey from cheras back to my home.
The course held at cheras, that's y along the way back home- our past keep coming out n show infront on my eye
I still remember along the journey back home, i felt so sad and lonely. But, last time when i back from his house, i never feel that..the onl things on my mind will be : i have will be i need to go home earlier , dont wan to let him worry..the first thing i need to do when i reached home is to let him know. I need to drive safely boz i dont wan him to worry. I miss his voice, so the first thing i reached home will be calling him.
But, now everything opposite, i dont kn y i need to be home, i dont know y i need to be safe, i felt the journey back home was so long. My tears alw out when i on my way back to home from cheras. This will be the onl feeling i got after he left me behind.
I also remember, last time when i wan to go his house, i never feel it is far or long journey.
Although it was jam, i still feel ok..boz the most important i can meet him after the long jam.
I never have the feeling 'long' and waste time during the journey to his house
But, now i will try my best not to hav the appointments there, but cheras is the only place i know that near ampang or whatever place. So, i will stil alw call my clients meet at cheras if they cant go PJ or KEpong.
Really appreacite he tought me the road at cheras, although now still not like super good on it, but at least got 60% i know the road there. Thanks so much to U

Actually my dream last time is happy together with him, and hold hand with him till we old age
I support him no matter what happen to him, no matter how sad he is, i will still wan to beside him
Boz i truely in love with him that time
Although i dont really know he truely in love with me before or not, but i believed he did.
At least he really treated me THE BEST when we were together.

Really thanks alot to ur love in the past.
I care our relationship so much, that's y until this stage i wish to keep our friendship closely.
I dont hope to lost u this closed friend that we used to love each other.
No matter how deep he hurt me, how bad he treated me this past few months, in my heart i really didnt angry him at all...i really forgive his everythg
I really hope no matter how, we will still the best close friend that can talk anything without pretending.

* actually about HIM i really got too much feeling on it until i cant finish writing it out, but i hope i can just keep it deep in my heart without disturbing him anymore *

In the end, i wan to tell him - thanks alot for ur love last time, thanks for letting me grow more mature throughtout our relationship, Thanks for everything. I really appreacited the love u used to give me. If u wan me to totally 100% forget u, i am sorry i really cant do it until now. the onl thing i can do is to put the love in a very deep place in my heart and hide it. Hope u understand, wont angry me boz of my love to u. If got chance i really wish u read whatever feeling i had for u and also telling me slowly as a friend to make me dont feel so hurt anymore. i really pretend until very tired already boz too many things remind me of u in my life .I really truely using my heart WISHing u all the best in ur life.

Direction of life program 10-11 Oct 2009 - PART 1

Actually i learnt alot this 2 days in this program
At first, i didnt want to go to this program boz i dont even know the purpose, but of coz the end i just go since i also nothing important to do for this sat n sun
Really thanks alot to helpers there, my leader , group learder and group's members
THanks alot people...
We all went there for a same PURPOSE "TO LEARN" or can called it as 'TO IMPROVE OURSELVES'
I am the exception of coz, boz i dont even know the full details about this whole course

I will share whatever i felt there in my blog,
actually yesterday i reached home at 1 sth and i slept at 2 sth am, but i dont hav the TIRED feeling at all on that moment ..--------U KNOW WHY???
because i finally realized something on that night and this will really helpful when i go along my life

The most memorable or i should say the part of this course that i really IN the condition will be the part when they were playing songs in the dark environment
I found out that actually i will easily touch by songs
I alw try very hard to understand the lyrics of the songs n some imagine will come out from my mind ( This will the way to kill me and make me feel like shir when i go inside the songs)
So, i will share the 4 songs that they played to us and how i felt on that moment
(actually yesterday i alr cant wait to write whatever i felt on that moment, but it was really late and the next day i need to woke up at 6.30am---the end, i didnt blog it first)

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First : The song about the mother {This world only mother is the best}
( sorry to say that i dont kn how to type out the name of the songs in chinese)

When the song played for the first time,
the lyrics really touch my feeling and my tears out immediately without any intention of acting or what
The meaning of the lyrics about this "children who have mother really 'xin fu', but children who dont have mother with them, the children will be like a grass'

My mind :

If i dont hav mother with me, i cant imagine how can i live. I didnt realised that i actually really very 'xin fu' boz my mother alw try her best to give me the things that i want. Then, this incident out on my mind. My mother know i unhappy for this few months, on my birthday she wrote me a paper and wish me happy birthday. Besides that, she gave the 'ang ku' that i like to eat with the paper. This really never happen before, and i really felt the LOVE from mother. She know i heart broken with someone and she really dont hope i will be unhappy sad during my birthday.THANks alot mother. I LOVE U. My skin now actually alegry and waiting for time to recover and i can felt my mum like so care of me boz she will keep asking me 'do u wan to drink this or not? i buy for u. Boz last time i used to drink that evrymorning but now stopped already since my mum didnt buy it, but boz of me she start to buying it again FOR ME. Really thanks alot to my mother.

Not only i want to tell my mother i love her, but also i want to say sorry boz i bluff her so many times when i was in love with HIM. Actually mother told me alot of times ' dont simply trust people, dont simply 'sit tai' to others ya, dont do all the bad things ya', but i dont really listen to it. SORRY mother. Besides that, i bluff her that i went my friend's house and sleep or play, but actually i went to his house and sleep. I regret that i alw said i will be back later later later when she called me, but actually i still with him outside enjoying or at his house relaxing. I saw my mum slept at my bro's room when i finished some of my parties with him and i will woke her up when i went inside to use the toilet. ( I know she purposely sleep there, boz she want to know what time i am back). But, after that, i will go with him to his house without my mum's permission ( sometimes i hav permission with valid reason, sometime i hav permission with fake reason and sometimes just without any permission). SORRY to my mother. This one cant blame HIM also, i know he missed me that time, i also missed him so much and loved him so much, so i put him so important until i forget my own mother. As a daughter, i felt sorry that i didnt all this things to hurt my mother so deep.I really hope i will never do all this things to hurt my mother anymore. At lot more i felt for my mother, so my tears kept coming out on that moment and non stop....i onl wan to tell myself ' i will never leave my mother alone..i wan to be with her forever'. I felt sorry to mother about my graduation day. I really thought she dont wan to come on that day, so we lack of communication on that time. Boz my whole heart n mind only thinking of HIM. Before the graduation night i argued with him n i was really very hurt n sad boz he cant come to my graduation boz i waited his sms for the whole long time after we argued before his exam. He said he wan to cool down n will talk to me after the exam. I really wait wait wait wait....with the hope he will talk nicely to me n will come to my graduation. But very sadly he told me he 'cant'. After that, my heart really broken n cant even talk to anyone anymore, so i didnt communicate with my parent at all and my mother thought he will go there n support me--boz my mother really trust him he will take care me, but the end,,,he broke my heart deeply.I still cant forget the sad feeling on my graduation day. i pretend to be happy until very tired..i really tired already. At frist i really dont wan to go for the graduation anymore since my heart also not there alr, but i dont wan to let my friends worry me or my mother worry me, so i need to pretend to be happy there and went there with my soul not there. I can pretend to be happy also boz of the call on the morning i received from my mother. she called n asked me ' r u ok or not? everythg ok already???' and i just answered ' ok...i am fine one' boz i simply answer her only. I really sorry to her...boz i didnt ans with my heart when she so concern me T.T I am really sorry also when i start thinking i treated him better than my own mother actually. On his birthday i bought him whatever he need with whatever price, but i didnt even try to thking what my mum needs when her birthday. I never send her a gift with my really true heart, but i sent to HIM. I really regret i treat other ppl that dont care me better than ppl who care me so much . When i thk of this my tears will just come out always. I really know i am bad daughter, i dont even really remember my mother's birthday but i remember his birthday deep in my heart. WHAT IS THIS...such a stupid daughter.

In this song, i not only want to appreciate my mother but also his mother. Actually i really can feel his mother's LOVE to him and also to me. When i at his house, the mother will alw ask whether i eat or not. Besides that, when late alr, then i still there, the mother will ask me frive carefully or better dont drive home because dangerous. She also alw told me about all the snatch thefts incidents in the newspaper to remind me to becareful. I actually aslo quite LOVE his mother in term of all this. Although sometime i abit not happy boz she alw last minute called the son to do her stuff, when the son alr promised me to do my stuff earlier first. OF coz i abit not happy, but i really didnt angry her or him at all. Boz i understand his mother really important to him, n mother really everythg. I really sorry to her boz last time i didnt unhappy boz of that. if got chance i really hope to be friend with her as a close friend. I really know when i with her son, she really treated me as her own daughter too..I really wan to say sorry to her for whatever i did bad at HK or the past to her. SORRY AUNTIE..I really appreciate her love to me also. If she dont mind i also wish to be her kai daughter.and then i will repay back her with my love boz i guess last time i didnt really show the love to her...Thanks ya

will be continuted by tomorrow....:)
Boz really tired already

This week outing :) and my sad toe

First will see my injured toe :(
So pain till now my whole leg also like quite pain sometime boz i stand long yesterday due to working

Let's ZOOM in :


My usual normal leg should be so nice
But, i dont kn when that toe can become normal like this :

With the sad toe,
i am still wearing the high heels walking around.
SO sorry..TOE
Boz i need to wear it to work and i walked alot,
that's y my leg also quite pain due to that reason :(

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Wednesday : Prudential October Road Show 2009 @ Sunway & Spa hotel

Crowed with all the quality Prudential Wealth Planner, Agency Managers and MORE

of coz not onl like this...
actually more at another side
I quite shy to take pictures there, boz i was at the first roll
I really enjoyed alot there,
boz i can listen to all the successful ppl and met all the quality people
SOmetime i just need ENERGY to work :)

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TOday, i was lost again at the cheras maluri
I really cant understand the place there
This was my 3 times went there and i still will lost when the way back
STUPID
I hope i wont lost tomorrow ..GOD BLESS ME
Boz of this client i need to go there like for 3 times to close her little small case
(only rm100 per month)
I really dont wan to meet her at all actually,
i was avoiding her for like few days when she called me.
U will ask WHY today u met her then???
Actually just boz she gave me the buying signer that she wan the policy
So,
the end i closed the case and wasted like 3 hours there to listen her Ginseng direct sales business story.
DO u know how annoying when i listen to all this thing??
I DONT WANT IT NOW
( can u all actually understand??)
Just let me try first,
if it worked for me, then i will introduce of coz..
Boz everyone know, my skin super sensitive
SO, if my skin recover then nobody for others :)
Sometime they just dont listen to what i said
Wasted my time and i didnt do work at all
Monday i will kena scold by manager boz of that
I AM SURE :(

Tomorrow going to be the long day out for courses till 12 am and sunday at 8 am
SO i hope someone will offer me the place to stay for onl like 7 hours :)

HAVE A NICE DAY

OMG my TOE

OMG my toe really damn pain for last whole night
really cant sleep well the whole night
BOZ really very very very very pain
So, today didnt work for the whole day boz i cant really walk long
I guess already better abit, boz when i dont walk it will be ok ok
Hopefully faster recover then i can wear back my heel
If not how can i work for this period??? T.T

Monday really not a nice day at all

After the meeting with manager,
i was so lazy and straight away ahead to my home
Planned to find some ppl while i waiting for my night appointment at Leisure mall
Hopefully later i will get 3 quality clients there before my appointment
But, now i was so lazy to go to that place to find ppl, my mood was not there :(
Feel like staying home and keep listening to this song "The Climb"

This is the song that brought me up while i fall down again and again
Really in love with this song
Meaning full song for me on this 3 months when i fell down
Dont know y today feel quite sad...for no reason :(
Hopefully i not missing someone again this time

Let's look at the lyrics of The Climb :

I can almost see it,
The dream I'm dreamin'
But there's a voice inside my head sayin'
You'll never reach it

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My fate is shaking

But I gotta keep tryin'
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a up-hill battle
Sometimes were gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith woah
Gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a up-hill battle
Sometimes were gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes it might knock me down
But, No, I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember Most, yeah
Just gotta keep goin'

And, I, I got to be Strong
Just Keep pushing, oh
'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
Were always gonna wanna make it through
Always gonna be a up-hill battle
Sometimes were gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's The Climb

This song really means alot to me, not only on my work but also inside my heart
Have to repeat it and repeat it until i will forget someone like last week
I will be strong and move on no matter how long it going to take
Although actually there is another mountain ( challenge) on the other side
Forget whatever it should forget and move on whatever i should do :)


OMG, my lip is pain :(
I drank alot of water already, but still...the side of my lip feeling so pain today
Hope after tonight my lip will be become normal and no more pain anymore
Really miss weekend so much

Sunday...how come weekend so fast end???

I love saturday and sunday so much
I can rest at home and do whatever i like
No need to think where can i get more ppl to see
Weekend really end very fast
Sometime i just hope the time can stop on weekend

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My cousin call me blog about my client's story :)
He age 25 now..Such a young man with single parent family
Come out work before the Form3 exam due to the family financial situation
Married 5 years ago and divorced already and i dont know when it happened
I guess should be the gal wanted to divorce boz as my client said...she like to 'feng tao' so much
My client dont wan to let her go 'feng tao' boz need to take care their babies, but...sometimes thing dont really go as smooth as whatever we wish
They already have like 2 babies ( one boy at age 5 and one boy at age 2)
Of coz the babies not with my client now, boz the ex wife sent them to her monther's side at sabah which at a very poor kampung
I asked ' why dont u bring them back togehter and take care them??'
He said ' Not i dont wan..but my ex wife dont let..and she is not the one who take care the babies but her mother. She at KL and work as a pub gal pouring drinks to all the customber at pub. Besides that, she can alw 'feng tao' also.."
What a sad story to hear about this..the lady is only like 26 years old. she wan to 'feng tao' until when ???
My client really learnt alot from this marriage and he really changed when the way he told me all this things
However, the happy thing is the 5 years old boy going to come to his side by November and he going to take care him :)
Wish them all the best :)
I will take care them too...with the insurance cover and give the best service to them
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Talking about guys

How come all the guys be good to be must get back some return???
As friends cant????
Sometime when u fall in love with someone who don't love u .....it is really hurt
But, really no choice :( Sadly to say that, and i really understand that feeling
actually Client really means client to me ...
I treat u as my friend + potential client in the future only ( No more extra than that)
I asked u to help me buy the kangaroo's skin just boz u went Australia and i didnt know u ....treat it so serious
I thought u help me buy that as a friend and i didnt know u called ur friend to find it for me door by door at Australia
I really appreciate that, but sorry to say...for me..i only can say THANKS
No other meaning behind the whole thing
Actually i know u like me, but sorry to say...i need to pretend i don't kn anything and treat u as a friend
So sorry to hurt u that day, i really didn't mean to hurt u so hard ya
Please forgive me for this
Lucky now everything had settled and go back to normal
We will still friend no matter how, please don't put anything in except friendship :)
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Again,
I edited some f my pictures
I LOVE MYSELF till i keep playing around with the software boz i not really familiar with it yet
Please don't mind i keep posting my 'zhi lian' pictures
HAHA




This is so Christmas feel
I LOVE Christmas
Christmas is coming very soon :)

Happy Moon Cake Festival

Today morning had my quarterly meeting
I ate damn alot today boz no need to pay.. HAHA
When the food no need i pay or buffet style, then i will eat damn alot until nobody business
{Should not do this anymore...i am become fatter and fatter if i continue doing this all the time}
Really quite enjoy this meeting boz of the food
I really LOVE the cake that provided for the September and October birthday's gals

Today, I can save my money for breakfast n lunch :)
Besides that, i also save on my dinner boz of mooncake festival

In the afternoon after the meeting, i met C and we went for shopping at THE CURVE
HAHA>..
SPent RM 38 for clothes again T.T
I am officially broke
How can i have more money in my bank???
WOrk harder and harder...but...i really facing obstancles now on my business
No matter what, i WONT GIVE UP
REALLT ENJOY SHOPPING with C

Celebrated mooncake festival at Joey's house
BBQ and also steamboat :)
I guess dont kn how to BBQ..HAHA
Boz i never stand up and cook a single food for myself at all
All cooked by my cousin and her sis....so touching :)
Dont really take alot of pic..but at least some when i was bored

BBQ

I ate the most on this :)

After the eating session, i need to accompany all the kids playing around with their games
HAHA
But, i quite enjoy it actually

After the whole long outing day
This is the time to sleep with my edited pic
GOOD NIGHT

such a wonderful friday

Friday...
My happy day, i can no need to worry about tomorrow time and no need to make calls in the morning
Although Saturday need to go for meeting in the early in the morning, but for me..that is nothing if compare to MOn till FRI

Just back from cousin's house
She same age as me, but she getting marriage tomorrow
How fast? How early?
But, at least she found her love one who can be forever
How about me??? not yet found my love one who can with me forever
Keep thinking myself..WHEN WHEN WHEN....
HAHA....but i enjoy being single this stage
Although nobody believe i single, but i don't care
HAHAHAHAHA,,

Start to love myself like last time already
Start taking my own pictures when i free
I really love to edit the pic using all the cute icon
Although it is quite wasting time, but i love it

SOme of my 'zhi lian' pic :

Before editing it

After editing it.
Look cute?? Look nice??
I LOVE IT

Started my SweetPai again

Went to KL again to gain clothes for my SweetPai with Winnie
OMG..rain so heavily and i have to find Winnie at the monarail station
HAHA..GUESS what..i passed the station boz there got no parking at all, so the end she thought of going there herself and i also went the place myself
But, RAIN TOO HEAVY....
OF COZ i went and fetched her..but she wan me go to the HangTuah station but i didnt know the location, so the end....she need to travel back to the Maharajerela station as the first station we supposed to meet up...
Wasted most of the time sitiing in car waiting each other...
But, luckily the end...still managed to get some stocks for My SweetPai

Please support my SweetPai..
Here is the link http://sweetpai.blogspot.com/
Feel free to give comments on the clothes or the websites or services i will be giving
I guess with all the opinions i will improve better in the future :)

Here will be some of the sample of dresses i in LOVE:

Thanks alot to my Client "ANson"

Today didnt really work
Not to say lazy, but kind of tired actually
Yesterday back like quite late and slept at around 2am
BUT, the happy thing was...I CLOSED a case

Prudential really MONEY FACE
LoCKed my commission last 2 months boz i didnt return the AFS scheme's production to them
I thought no need to return, i was quite happy to submit my cases using my normal code,
but suddenly i realized this 2 months Prudential dint pay me a single cents at all
FUCKKKKKK...........
Then, after my manager helped me to find out the problem. They said i need to return back the production first before i can start having back my commission i supposed to have every month.
Now, they said i still owe them 1,906 API.
I closed a case yesterday with onl 1,800 API
still have to owe Prudential, so my manager call me to ask my client to pay extra rm10 per month
So that i will straight away give back Prudential 1,920API
Lucky my client very good people and he really willing to pay the extra RM10 per month with increase the benefit :)

I BELIEVE :

WHEN I TREAT PPL GOOD, PPL WILL ALSO TREAT ME BACK THE SAME

THANKS TO MY BELOVED CLIENT *muacks*

Yesterday met my client, then i found out....HE got 2 baby boys already
WTF right?? He now only 24 years old
HAHA.....but after i listen to some of his story, i found out ppl do change by experience
He did change alot now for the kids and himselves
I really hope he can find someone who he love and gal that love him...HAPPY TOGETHER FOREVER
Actually his story very long, and i lazy to type it out ..hehhee
WISh HIM all the BEST

Edited my own pic when i was bored
Found out this new software from someone's blog :)
I found it interesting and fun by editing own pic while creating some story



This is to show...i was sad....
BUT now...i am HAPPY with my life already

Why i always around CHERAS this 2 days??? I HATE that place but i wish that place can bring me business

Yesterday ;
I remembered i dream of HIM again on that day, but i forgot what was it about anymore- should be good thing happen
After for so long, only i started dream him again that day
(i have improved from everyday dream of him to..long long time one dream :) )
This should be a good result from me

OMG, I Hate cheras maluri, i really dont understand where is where at this stupid cheras maluri
LOST at the night on my way back home
really fucking hate this feeling
I was so tired and i was so scared till my tear keep coming out the whole journey to get my way back home
I lost to a Kampung place and i was so scared till i cant tahan anymore - i called HIM
BUt, he didnt pick up. I thought he at least will call me back ask me what happen as a friend
I believed if he received a miss call from his friend, he will 100% confirm call back to ask what happen. (but, in this care, he will just ignore and avoid it..haiz...what happen??? i just wan to ask u for direction boz u r the only friend i know from cheras. This help will cause u any pain or any loss?? if dont wan listen to my voice, u can just sms me to ask??)
Anyway, i dont wan to further explain about that situation, boz i was so scared and lost that time - DEPRESSING mode on that moment)
The end, i simply turn here n there only i found my way back
Until nowi still dont kn how to get home from that client's place - F-ing hate to go that place

DON'T just stress on my sad story
(always remind myself to think positively)

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Today ;
Ate McDonald again, but this time with my favourite "McNuggets"
I LOVE nuggets so much *muacks*
But, the client cant make it the appointment
So, i went to another appointment at taman connought
As usual i lost the way when i wan to U-turn to the Giant side, but at least i managed to find Giant boz i turn back to Taman Segar by following signboard, then folow taman connought signboard to find Giant
Day time i dont mind to find my way to a place slowly and patiently without asking help from anyone
I got 2 quality clients inside this Giant and i really going to follow up them closely :)
At least my blog not always about sad things only

Full day outing on Saturday

Suppose to have 4 appointments this day, but only 2 kept
Still very happy boz at least during this 4 appointments i did meet 2 persons to follow up and one client paid me money already :)
After the whole busy working period, then i met Henny for dinner and we went pasar malam at Jinjang ( my first time at Jinjang pasar malam)
I really enjoy going out with friends this 2 weeks, boz i not so depress when i was out and i wont be missing him so much when i was out.
I should be strong boz i realiase there are alot of ppl lost their love ones too at this few months
(wish everyone will be strong, hope to hold hand with them and pass through this tough stage togehter)
I really spent alot of money this week, and i thk my bank going to become RM 0 very very very soon :(
How to ....get more business and get more money???
GOD help me....

After dinner, i went to yam char with my cousins at coffee bean at DesaPark City
Here will be some of my pictures at coffee bean :

As usual, i will have my caramel
( Where is my coffee bean's member card actually?? with u?? or with me?? i cant find )

Take 1
(some people behind me..make the pic look so...not nice :( , so take 2 again)

Take 2
(Nowadays i take pic really so ugly...face problems :( , so ugly man...no more pic of my face anymore)


Chigaco Cheese Cake that Joey's sister ordered
She ate damn fast, she said she wan to share with me but almost all she finished up
Besides that, she started eating it before i wan to take pic.
Can u imagine how fast was she??
I guess she was hungry that time
COFFEE BEAN remind me of my last year birthday's cake that he bought it for me
Really thanks him to give me a memorable birthday last year :")

Missing someone badly

Can someone tell me what happen to me???
When i woke up i miss u.
I hope to see u beside me like we at HK that time
I thought i alr used to not having u beside me???
But, actually i still miss u badly all the time

The first thg i reach home, i will confirm on my comp n check u out..
WHAT HAPPEN TO ME?
The end, i will be having depression myself with all the thg u did
One day i going to get crazy n depression badly
Can anyone help me out to forget the person?
Tear alw come out automatically when i miss him

I really got depress and lost of control after i reading ur post regarding the ranking
I really noone for u right??
Not i dont wan to support u...i really know i was wrong
and i really wish to accompany during ur journey to success
I know last time i dont understand u wwell..
After i lost u, i really understand i cant let go
U ignore me all the times and comments on my friend n cousin's blog
I know u dont miss me n u scared of me... T.T
My heart just...i dont understand myself
Why do i need to cry all the time for ur every single word and whatever u did?
My tear still coming out all the time when..i thk of u..
When will my tear stop coming out???
Why do i still waiting ???
Do u know all ur thing i still keep it nicely with me??/
I will still hug ir when i need it especially when my tear coming out non stop like NOW
I just missing someone alr dont miss me...
I am tired of life :(
I thought i can be strong by not having u anymore...but i really cant be strong when u ignore me all the times
I hate memories, whenever i went i will thk of u..will reming me of our happy moments
I know u dont even remmeber a single thing about us
No matter how u treat me ..i will still support u..really wish u all the best on ur success journey
i really support u sincerely but i know u dont wan my support at all T,T
really hope u do miss me when u free, do remember me will still support behind u when u down, remember i will still listen all ur stories when u r sad..
REALLY MISS U

OMG my skin

Today mood not so good due the work stress
I dont know where to get more people to talk and better target people to approach anymore
I am lost in my business :(
The most sad thing was :
My senior keep asking what happen to my skin? how come suddenly so many pimples ~ this show my face kind of sad on this moment
I was so embrassed when he asked me that
SO, i am going to believe on that ginseng dragon product can help and if do help :)
I am going to introduce to people who wan to be pretty like me
WIsh me all the best :)

Suddenly everyone start writing blog and keep updated quite often already
It is a good sign for me, boz i can waste some times while reading other people's blogs
He also started his blog and of coz i know he ignore mine :(
Remember yesterday i was pissed by him?? But, now i started to miss him again by hoping he update something in his blog and i can read it
Actually i guess yesterday i was not really angry him at all, i just wish to have his care at least like 0.01 % by a call back
OF coz..if compare to last week i really miss him lesser alr ~ is this a good sign for me??
I saw he read my cousin's blog and comment on it
Comment about early 20 will be ppl's attitude forever..something like this..
But, do u know i change so much for u, and i hope u do know...of coz..he wont care anymore
I wish he will care me at least and i definitely hope to get a better person to LOVE me
No matter how, i will still consider u as my best best best best friend forever boz i really did love u and all our old memories will be in my heart forever

I really kind of confuse whether to open to public or not.
open or not open???
If open i scared he read my blog and he know i still love him still miss him..then he will avoid me
If not open i hope he can read my blog and know how i feel for all this while. At least he can know how much i miss him and i really wish him all the best on his life
BUT, i think so much also like for nothg...boz i guess he wont bother to read my this little blog :(

You pissed me off again indirectly

Today i suppose to have 4 appointments -from afternoon till night
but,only one appointment kept and another one not confirm yet till this minute.

I should talk about why do i get piss again by HIM
Just now afternoon was so rush to Cheras Maluri to meet this client and I dont kn where is the place :(
SO, i was like thinking for around 20 min whether to call HIM or not to ask the place.
The end, i planned to call, but nobody picked up.
I was so pissed when i finished the appointment boz i thought he purposely dont wan to pick up my call.
Of coz...the end, i cant tahan i send him a sms to ask him

ME : So busy izit? I need ur urgent help just now also u dont pick up.
He : Anything? Sorry i was still sleeping just now....
ME : Nothing.
ME :I needed ur help so much just now, but...at least u call me back?? I kn I am nothg at all. sorry to disturb then
He: I'm sorry. I one something onl woke and i was in a rush to go out.

With all this can clearly show..HOW CRUEL IS HE alr.
NOW, i really believe sometime when guy dont love u anymore..they really dont give a shit on her and dont care her anymore
WHEN they r chasing u and in love that time, they r like totally different ppl at all.
HE is the good example...
BUT, i still wish he not like this..hope time can prove me wrong
Mayb i am still bluffing myself all this while :(

Anyway,
Today i spent 4 hours in the client's shop and talking about this most of the times....onl like 1 or half hour talk about my Prudential
The only good thing is the client has no insurance so confirm will get it from me :)
so wish me luck to close her for RM 200 per month next week.

TODAY i spent RM 480 for this health care thingy :

Dragon Ginseng

Declared can help me to improve my skin situation in one month
The guy said my skin not serious so very easy to recover :)
I need to drink it for like 3 times per day for this whole month
Besides that, i need to use it to apply as a mask for everynight before i sleep
The details i will future explain when it really work to me..
AND..i will introduce to everyone who wan to be pretty and nice skin like i do :)
Stay with me with this product

I LOVE HOLIDAY.......but.......

Holiday is amazing :)
Can sleep at whatever time and wake up at whatever thing i like
Besides that, can enjoy shopping, watching TV and relaxing the whole day
Really Love holiday so much *muacks muacks*

But,
the only thing i dont like is i will keep thinking of HIM
I know yesterday P u spoke to him, I really very very very very feel like want to know what u all talking about
Although i know P will tell me something that will make me sad..I KNOW
He will say dont talk about me anymore :(
I MISS HIM so much from the day he left
HOW come he is not the same??? he is so cruel to me T.T
DO u know how suffer am i every night before i wan to sleep and also after i woke up
Every seconds when i was awake, i will confirm think of u, miss u
But, y do u dont even care my feeling?
My head is full of u all the time. Will u feel the same too someday?
Few questions keep asking myself all the times :
When i will forget u?
when only the feeling of missing u going to go away from me??
when will u come back to me?
When will u miss me at least once a day?
When will u let me go in ur heart once again?
When will u dont let me go away from u again?
......alot of questions to ask

I thought i wan to forget u, but i think i dont wan to forget u
What is all this actually??
What do i wan actually??
Anyone can ans me??
I dont even understand what i wan and i wish to understand what he wan actually
I HATE MYSELF T.T