what have i plan for my birthday???

This year 2009 birthday will be the most lonely birthday i ever had before
Not i dont hav friends with me, not i dont hav relatives with me,
but i wan to be celebrated alone with him
I know it is actually impossible alr, but i will celebrate it by all the memories i had with him

Being alone with the place with together first time ( that place : onl me n him will know about that place. We started there, we hang out there last time when we didnt let anyone know about our relationship. At that place, really happen alot of things. I dont know he will remember or not, but it really big impact on me - I really wish he will go there n find me, but that is like impossible)

Being alone at the place we always hang out when at night after we pakto ( that place we used to hang out when we started pakto not long ago. That place has good environment, has good place to rest. will he stil remember with that??? I know of coz he wont. We usually walk walk there)

Being alone at the place we used to hang out nearby his house (every friday night when i at his house - my birthday also on friday night. Actually he said b4 will still accompany me to go that place if he free...but of coz i know he just saying, wont do it. Mayb on that day will be the last time i going there by myself. Don't know that friday where will him be. Of coz i know he confirm go to far far place, so that wont give me chance to disturb him at all- how hurt to know the reality)

* There will be alot of place we used to hang out together, but some i dontkn how to go also. So, i will just stay at a place to wait till he find me?? of coz i know he wont come also...but i still wan to wait till he appear infront of me. So sorry, i know i disappointed alot of ppl by helping me so hard to forget him. Really sorry.

Of coz on that day, i will stay on a place we used to be together and quietly thinking about our past. y can become this stage now??? Sorry dear...i hope u can forgive me..How can u so fast dont like me dont bother me dont care me anymore???

End of the life between us??? Nobody can contact me during that day..i will disappear from everyone