Today trying to work work - making myself busy
But, the end someone making me piss boz didnt turn up when alr promised me to turn up
I purposely drove there and waited there for this stupid person
The end, he said....his car servicing so got no car to drive here and meet next time ( after half hours i waited there)
Before reaching i alr tried to call for few times to ask for 2nd reconfirmation boz at first wanted to make it earlier to 4.30 pm, but nobody picked up ( the most important thing i alr called at 3pm to reconfirm and he said YES)
This is so irresponsible person :(
Wasted my time and enegry to make effort to meet this person
Today is my bro's birthday, so called mother and bro to have western food for dinner
The main objective is because i feel like eating 'fish and chip' and make myself feel happy
Shared 'fish and chip' and 'black pepper chicken chop' with mother
Very full and satisfied with the food
My mood also become more happy :)
but...still....remind me of *kaki corner* - the place he brought me when i wanted to have western food for my dinner
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Friday, October 30, 2009
100% Emotional affected
Today was the 'down' day after i saw his fb
Don't even understand why i need to be so emotional affected by his little comment there
He planning to leaving to Vietnam for business next year
This was totally making my tears out immediately
Just like he going to leave now and forever
Actually just for a business- why do i need to be so affected by that????
I guess i am scared he wont be back after he leave or mayb i scared he will be having new gal there or family there ???
WHAT am i thinking also???
Before this incident happened, i thought i was 90% let go and not going to be so easy emotional affected by his any single thing, but i was wrong
Actually i trying to bluff myself not to be affected
I guess i was bluffing myself not to be in love anymore with him
No matter what pic he had with others gals or anyone, i was not so emotional affected anymore boz i actually trust him...i know he....won't
Until today i still trust him..i trust and believe he will be back one day
Anyway... i am ok already after talking to many of the good friends
Thanks everyone..they understand my feeling
Especially darling who alw support me, cousin who always by my side telling me i am alr doing good and friends who alw letting me know they will support me and telling me time will prove everything
I know if i dont try to ready asap, i cant contact him back and cant friend him back
SO...i have to move on and be ready asap ---boz 30 days is coming soon
Anyway, i watched a movie today 'time traveler's wife'
At first friends wanted to watch 'Ninja', but C and me don't really wan that movie
I thought 'time traveler's wife' was the movie i wanted to watch boz i watched a trailer that day with C - something about robot in the town
I thought Time Traveler's wife is the one, but....actually i was wrong
HAHA...stupid me--boz i dont really care what movies showing now or coming soon, since i wont watch with him anymore and nobody going to purposely bring me for movie anymore
The comment of this movie ----confusing and actually not so nice to watch
* wish to have his shoulder with me again while watching movies like last time*
Don't even understand why i need to be so emotional affected by his little comment there
He planning to leaving to Vietnam for business next year
This was totally making my tears out immediately
Just like he going to leave now and forever
Actually just for a business- why do i need to be so affected by that????
I guess i am scared he wont be back after he leave or mayb i scared he will be having new gal there or family there ???
WHAT am i thinking also???
Before this incident happened, i thought i was 90% let go and not going to be so easy emotional affected by his any single thing, but i was wrong
Actually i trying to bluff myself not to be affected
I guess i was bluffing myself not to be in love anymore with him
No matter what pic he had with others gals or anyone, i was not so emotional affected anymore boz i actually trust him...i know he....won't
Until today i still trust him..i trust and believe he will be back one day
Anyway... i am ok already after talking to many of the good friends
Thanks everyone..they understand my feeling
Especially darling who alw support me, cousin who always by my side telling me i am alr doing good and friends who alw letting me know they will support me and telling me time will prove everything
I know if i dont try to ready asap, i cant contact him back and cant friend him back
SO...i have to move on and be ready asap ---boz 30 days is coming soon
Anyway, i watched a movie today 'time traveler's wife'
At first friends wanted to watch 'Ninja', but C and me don't really wan that movie
I thought 'time traveler's wife' was the movie i wanted to watch boz i watched a trailer that day with C - something about robot in the town
I thought Time Traveler's wife is the one, but....actually i was wrong
HAHA...stupid me--boz i dont really care what movies showing now or coming soon, since i wont watch with him anymore and nobody going to purposely bring me for movie anymore
The comment of this movie ----confusing and actually not so nice to watch
* wish to have his shoulder with me again while watching movies like last time*
Monday, October 26, 2009
I am on the right job?
Keep asking myself 'do i in the right business or job??'
Last time when i got my permanent job with accounting, i think that was bored
But, now i kind of want to go back to the job boz it was really relaxing and wont be stress like now
I stopped that accounting job, mostly boz of him and also my mummy
I wished to hav bright future, more time in the future for family and more money for mummy and my own future family
But, what do i get now?
Still using mummy's money for like travel expenses :(
I dont even effort to pay my own traveling boz i dont really have alot of customers on my business now
I followed what manager said selling using heart and always think of the customer's point of view
How come people who simply sell will get more sales than me??? when i am the one who used the heart to sell
In the morning, manager just told me what one of the top manager share in his talk :
We should not complain others ,we only can blame ourselves not doing enough
We should not compare with others boz we only need to focus on our own goals
We shoudl plan and think what make us fail, then continue with all the new strategy to move on
*but i guess i dont really know how to plan for myself, that's y i fail ...*
After all this thoughts came inside my mind, i felt so sorry to my mummy...
She paid me to study to get a degree but now i dont even give her money --i still as a failure and using mummy's money
Why do i come to this world for? to waste my mummy's money and she will be old one day and i really wish i have the ability to take care her well
I really hope to work well in this business boz i cant let my mummy dissapointed with me
The whole day depressing and sad while talking to mervynn when my client ffk me at the ss2 McD
Sitting alone there before he came, thinking what should i do to earn more for my mummy
Sitting alone there blaming myself not doing enough
SO, i start calling anyone i can when they came into my mind for future appointments " but some dont pick up at all--kind of dissapointed"
Sitting alone there with my Sundae RM3.15
Everyday i spending money like water, but i dont even earn a single cents for this day
Feeling lonely with the sundae :(
The whole day no energy to work and talk boz of the all the thought i had
Besides that, there was also one thing very important came in my mind while i was thinking hard
"how much do i worth per hour???"
RM 30 or RM 40 or RM 50??
At this current stage -- i guess i worth nothg 'not even a single cents"
What should i do to make myself more happy and move on without regret
I really need someone's shoulder at this moment of time
I felt like crying on his shoudler and letting him concern and care
But...i know it is impossible now :(
Last time when i got my permanent job with accounting, i think that was bored
But, now i kind of want to go back to the job boz it was really relaxing and wont be stress like now
I stopped that accounting job, mostly boz of him and also my mummy
I wished to hav bright future, more time in the future for family and more money for mummy and my own future family
But, what do i get now?
Still using mummy's money for like travel expenses :(
I dont even effort to pay my own traveling boz i dont really have alot of customers on my business now
I followed what manager said selling using heart and always think of the customer's point of view
How come people who simply sell will get more sales than me??? when i am the one who used the heart to sell
In the morning, manager just told me what one of the top manager share in his talk :
We should not complain others ,we only can blame ourselves not doing enough
We should not compare with others boz we only need to focus on our own goals
We shoudl plan and think what make us fail, then continue with all the new strategy to move on
*but i guess i dont really know how to plan for myself, that's y i fail ...*
After all this thoughts came inside my mind, i felt so sorry to my mummy...
She paid me to study to get a degree but now i dont even give her money --i still as a failure and using mummy's money
Why do i come to this world for? to waste my mummy's money and she will be old one day and i really wish i have the ability to take care her well
I really hope to work well in this business boz i cant let my mummy dissapointed with me
The whole day depressing and sad while talking to mervynn when my client ffk me at the ss2 McD
Sitting alone there before he came, thinking what should i do to earn more for my mummy
Sitting alone there blaming myself not doing enough
SO, i start calling anyone i can when they came into my mind for future appointments " but some dont pick up at all--kind of dissapointed"
Sitting alone there with my Sundae RM3.15
Everyday i spending money like water, but i dont even earn a single cents for this day
Feeling lonely with the sundae :(
The whole day no energy to work and talk boz of the all the thought i had
Besides that, there was also one thing very important came in my mind while i was thinking hard
"how much do i worth per hour???"
RM 30 or RM 40 or RM 50??
At this current stage -- i guess i worth nothg 'not even a single cents"
What should i do to make myself more happy and move on without regret
I really need someone's shoulder at this moment of time
I felt like crying on his shoudler and letting him concern and care
But...i know it is impossible now :(
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Monday coming....
Monday coming really not so fun..
Mood become so bad and start missing him again
Boz of what?? I also not like so free to think of him, but just miss him
Felt tired to miss him and also felt tired of work
Mayb i start missing him boz i read someone's blog that she had found her love's one after 7 months of broken heart
Really felt happy for her and wish her all the best :)
Don't know when i am going to be as happy as her too???
Wish the day come really fast and stay with me forever
Today purposely woke up at 12.45pm to catch the appt at 2pm, but the end...the uncle couldn't make it after i have reach that place ( i paid the tolls RM1.60*2 =RM3.20 for nothing)
Making me felt so tired today boz i slept so late yesterday
How come all this people just couldn't tell me before they start making another plan??
Before i went, i had reconfirm the appt already :(
Uncle, u better give me sales for my Shanghai trip....(at least ,...abit)
Went with cousin again to OneU for shopping and the main purpose is to use up the RM5 voucher
But, today i dont really have the mood of shopping, so i was like a death body shopping with them
The end, still managed to get myself a pant from mummy :)
Thanks Mummy :) at least my mood wont be so ...down
I really wan to complain this stupid Nose's sales promoter...he was fucking stupid when he brought us the shoe that my mum actually wanted to buy
After my mum tried the shoe, she let me tried boz at least we wanted to know whether the shoe will cause our leg pain or not, but the stupid fucking sales promoter just took the shoe away from us after i took off and said ' i guess u all dont like this shoe, so there is another auntie wanted to try the shoe also' ---Fuck...he didnt even ask us wan or not...he decided himself ( how bad is the service??)..We got money also don't wan to buy already boz of his stupid attitude
OMG...My prudential colleague met an accident after meeting me yam char at midnight and told me like 2am in the midnight when i asked him reach home or not ..sadly
Am i bring him bad luck or what???
Someone didnt follow the traffic light's rules while driving, so bang my colleague's car
And now he wont have car to use during this moment
I felt so sorry to him....
I dont know what to say anymore---except the word 'sorry'
Hopefully the car finish repair very soon and he can have his car back for work
*hopefully everything will be fine after all this bad moments*
*GOD bless that everything will be fine and wish everyone can be happy everyday*
Mood become so bad and start missing him again
Boz of what?? I also not like so free to think of him, but just miss him
Felt tired to miss him and also felt tired of work
Mayb i start missing him boz i read someone's blog that she had found her love's one after 7 months of broken heart
Really felt happy for her and wish her all the best :)
Don't know when i am going to be as happy as her too???
Wish the day come really fast and stay with me forever
Today purposely woke up at 12.45pm to catch the appt at 2pm, but the end...the uncle couldn't make it after i have reach that place ( i paid the tolls RM1.60*2 =RM3.20 for nothing)
Making me felt so tired today boz i slept so late yesterday
How come all this people just couldn't tell me before they start making another plan??
Before i went, i had reconfirm the appt already :(
Uncle, u better give me sales for my Shanghai trip....(at least ,...abit)
Went with cousin again to OneU for shopping and the main purpose is to use up the RM5 voucher
But, today i dont really have the mood of shopping, so i was like a death body shopping with them
The end, still managed to get myself a pant from mummy :)
Thanks Mummy :) at least my mood wont be so ...down
I really wan to complain this stupid Nose's sales promoter...he was fucking stupid when he brought us the shoe that my mum actually wanted to buy
After my mum tried the shoe, she let me tried boz at least we wanted to know whether the shoe will cause our leg pain or not, but the stupid fucking sales promoter just took the shoe away from us after i took off and said ' i guess u all dont like this shoe, so there is another auntie wanted to try the shoe also' ---Fuck...he didnt even ask us wan or not...he decided himself ( how bad is the service??)..We got money also don't wan to buy already boz of his stupid attitude
OMG...My prudential colleague met an accident after meeting me yam char at midnight and told me like 2am in the midnight when i asked him reach home or not ..sadly
Am i bring him bad luck or what???
Someone didnt follow the traffic light's rules while driving, so bang my colleague's car
And now he wont have car to use during this moment
I felt so sorry to him....
I dont know what to say anymore---except the word 'sorry'
Hopefully the car finish repair very soon and he can have his car back for work
*hopefully everything will be fine after all this bad moments*
*GOD bless that everything will be fine and wish everyone can be happy everyday*
Friday, October 23, 2009
Yam Char with Carmen and Carolyn
Today morning, my face looked so red..i guess boz i kena the sun abit
Doctor told me to stay home and wanted to give me MC for few days
I guess i am like a puteri lilin alr...cant even kena sunlight
But, i only kena like 5-10 seconds???
a small distance only...
I better watch out and going to be with my lovely umbrella whenever i go
With the love sign ' umbrella bought by someone special' - no matter how i will still keep u deep in my heart :'P
Tonight we went to a mamak...OMG--i dont even know the name of the mamak
I went there after my dinner and when i reached there..i ordered a 'roti canai kosong'
This is called ---keep fit??? haha..keep eating all the time, really terrible
I need to watch out my weight too before it become too late :(
CONTROL CONTROL CONTROL....have to control before my tummy become super big till the extent i cant control it anymore
I enjoyed being with friends always and chit-chat
The end...Carolyn bought me a small dessert 'tiramisu' from popeye
She always treated me some dessert or dinner
so sweet her...*muacks*
Really happy being talking with her and enjoy gossiping with her, but...
We actually no more things to gossip boz we not at college anymore :(
Miss college time when we were so busy gossiping around about anyone we felt interested to put in our topic of the day
No picture taken today boz my face looked so UGLY....
Only took this little 'tiramisu' treated by C , here we go :
I really very full today with all the foods and dessert :)
Thanks C for the 'Tiramisu"
* i guess u know i not happy so u got me dessert to make me happy, i felt it..thanks *
Doctor told me to stay home and wanted to give me MC for few days
I guess i am like a puteri lilin alr...cant even kena sunlight
But, i only kena like 5-10 seconds???
a small distance only...
I better watch out and going to be with my lovely umbrella whenever i go
With the love sign ' umbrella bought by someone special' - no matter how i will still keep u deep in my heart :'P
Tonight we went to a mamak...OMG--i dont even know the name of the mamak
I went there after my dinner and when i reached there..i ordered a 'roti canai kosong'
This is called ---keep fit??? haha..keep eating all the time, really terrible
I need to watch out my weight too before it become too late :(
CONTROL CONTROL CONTROL....have to control before my tummy become super big till the extent i cant control it anymore
I enjoyed being with friends always and chit-chat
The end...Carolyn bought me a small dessert 'tiramisu' from popeye
She always treated me some dessert or dinner
so sweet her...*muacks*
Really happy being talking with her and enjoy gossiping with her, but...
We actually no more things to gossip boz we not at college anymore :(
Miss college time when we were so busy gossiping around about anyone we felt interested to put in our topic of the day
No picture taken today boz my face looked so UGLY....
Only took this little 'tiramisu' treated by C , here we go :
I really very full today with all the foods and dessert :)
Thanks C for the 'Tiramisu"
* i guess u know i not happy so u got me dessert to make me happy, i felt it..thanks *
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Met doctor due to skin allergy again
Sadly my skin allegry was back, but this time was on my face and quite serious :(
I realised it like few weeks ago, but i thought it will recover very soon and the end i didnt see doctor
Until Today i could not tahan anymore with the itchiness of the skin, so i went to see doctor alone
OMG..this was the first time i met doctor alone without anyone accompany
Last time i got mother to accompany and also HIM to accompany
NOW..i no need HIM anymore..he going to be out of my life...
Anyway i still thanks him alot and hope we still become best friends like time again in the coming period, but not now yet
I spent like rm45 for the medicine and the cream for allergy :
I realised it like few weeks ago, but i thought it will recover very soon and the end i didnt see doctor
Until Today i could not tahan anymore with the itchiness of the skin, so i went to see doctor alone
OMG..this was the first time i met doctor alone without anyone accompany
Last time i got mother to accompany and also HIM to accompany
NOW..i no need HIM anymore..he going to be out of my life...
Anyway i still thanks him alot and hope we still become best friends like time again in the coming period, but not now yet
I spent like rm45 for the medicine and the cream for allergy :
Monday, October 19, 2009
First time went for client small birthday celebration
That day was the first day i wore so casual to a party since i going to shiew mei's house for her grandma's funeral
Besides that, also boz i was so lazy to ban leng leng at night and lazy to clean off everythg again at the midnight when i was back- unless special occasions i will have the mood to do that :)
GUESS WHAT??
i kind of enjoyed when i went for ppl's small birthday celebration
The birthday boy was my client's best friend ( and also my future client)
I didnt know they ordered the TIger there...and drank there
Of coz i aslo drank on that time and i realised ' TIGER' not bad actually
I really enjoy drinking there and felt so nice to drink with them *happy*
I had the feeling of 'happy' after drinking alchohol....i guess i in love with alcohol but not until the drunk stage
SO, if anyone free can invite me to drink session ..HAHA....
But i dont wan to pay man..i dont hav the extra budget for all this :P
After attending the birthday, i went to shiew mei's house with mother
OMG...some of the uncles there also my dad's friends....
THEY all know each other...this world is SMALL.
HAHA...but i really wish all the best to their family
When i reached there, i can felt the gandba really not happy and sad..
he hide himself at the room and didnt come out, so the first time i reached there was to ask about the grandba's emotion and visited the grandma's body
Hope everything will be great :)
Overall on that day, i really felt quite ok...just a small sad part was about my skin - really fucking itchy and red...scared my clients away only :(
Besides that, also boz i was so lazy to ban leng leng at night and lazy to clean off everythg again at the midnight when i was back- unless special occasions i will have the mood to do that :)
GUESS WHAT??
i kind of enjoyed when i went for ppl's small birthday celebration
The birthday boy was my client's best friend ( and also my future client)
I didnt know they ordered the TIger there...and drank there
Of coz i aslo drank on that time and i realised ' TIGER' not bad actually
I really enjoy drinking there and felt so nice to drink with them *happy*
I had the feeling of 'happy' after drinking alchohol....i guess i in love with alcohol but not until the drunk stage
SO, if anyone free can invite me to drink session ..HAHA....
But i dont wan to pay man..i dont hav the extra budget for all this :P
After attending the birthday, i went to shiew mei's house with mother
OMG...some of the uncles there also my dad's friends....
THEY all know each other...this world is SMALL.
HAHA...but i really wish all the best to their family
When i reached there, i can felt the gandba really not happy and sad..
he hide himself at the room and didnt come out, so the first time i reached there was to ask about the grandba's emotion and visited the grandma's body
Hope everything will be great :)
Overall on that day, i really felt quite ok...just a small sad part was about my skin - really fucking itchy and red...scared my clients away only :(
Sunday, October 18, 2009
I have to move on for him
While i watching this TVB drama :
There were this 2 ladies' love story:
!st would be Fala Chen as Ng Choi Nei 吳采妮 (Charlie) acted as relationship around age 30.
Problem : In the relationship, she and the bf also not mature and alw think of themselves only ( just like now...ME...and most of the young relationship). They broke up boz of small thing - not understanding each other enough. Solution: Both of them did their part, Charlie know her ex bf like to have the feeling of 'home', so she started learning how to cook, keep house, be mature and be more understanding while the broke up period. Ryan ( the bf) tried to be more mature and more understanding...the most important - learn to be MAN. The end, both of them happy loving together.
This is the result of both side also give their love and efforts in to the relationship.
What i learned from this story is...i need to put more effort in to the relationship that i wanted to keep. But, the cooking part...i need to take time to handle it, boz i know he actually aslo wan me to cook for him. He is the one who wan to feeling of HOME, just like the guy in that drama. He mentioned to me so manytimes that he wan me to be like his sis, take care the whole family and independent. Now...i will be forcusing all this and letting him know...i can do it.
2nd would be Christine Ng as Lo Siu Mei 魯小美 (May) acted as relationship around age 45.
Problem: May looking for man by looking at their family background and outlook. But, the end she fall in love with a 'fat guy' who not rich, ....the most important he very understanding and caring. This make her felf that she cant ever find this type of man from a rich man. They broke up boz there her ex husband came back to her and that time she dont know who to choose ( whether to choose someone who satisfied all her requirements or someone who dont satisfy her requirement but Lover her so much and care her so much). The fat guy found out they still contact each other, so he angry and gone. Solution: May sending him one email per day about her life and telling him how much she miss him. Besides that, she also never hope that he will be back, but just move on her life.by adopted few children to accompany her life. The end, the guy know her changes and back to her :)
What i learned from this story is to keep moving on my life although now he no twith me anymore, But, i no need to give up, boz i believe GOD will bring us together back in the future and wan to let him see the changes on me. I am sure he will confirm 100% fall in love with me again.
Besides this, there is also another sign telling me i need to move on for him. While i reading the entertainment news, 2 singers have been together again while they alr broke up last 2 years for some reasons and next year they getting married. This really motivate me with full of energy getting him back :)
So, from now on....i need to reduce checking him out so often.
One week can only check his facebook for 3 times.
No contact with him until i am ready by showing him the changes of me...
Please support me if u r my true friends :)
The Stew Of Life 有營煮婦
This show make me realized that 'let go a bit now, then later will be getting more and better--will be back also if we have faith to be together'There were this 2 ladies' love story:
!st would be Fala Chen as Ng Choi Nei 吳采妮 (Charlie) acted as relationship around age 30.
Problem : In the relationship, she and the bf also not mature and alw think of themselves only ( just like now...ME...and most of the young relationship). They broke up boz of small thing - not understanding each other enough. Solution: Both of them did their part, Charlie know her ex bf like to have the feeling of 'home', so she started learning how to cook, keep house, be mature and be more understanding while the broke up period. Ryan ( the bf) tried to be more mature and more understanding...the most important - learn to be MAN. The end, both of them happy loving together.
This is the result of both side also give their love and efforts in to the relationship.
What i learned from this story is...i need to put more effort in to the relationship that i wanted to keep. But, the cooking part...i need to take time to handle it, boz i know he actually aslo wan me to cook for him. He is the one who wan to feeling of HOME, just like the guy in that drama. He mentioned to me so manytimes that he wan me to be like his sis, take care the whole family and independent. Now...i will be forcusing all this and letting him know...i can do it.
2nd would be Christine Ng as Lo Siu Mei 魯小美 (May) acted as relationship around age 45.
Problem: May looking for man by looking at their family background and outlook. But, the end she fall in love with a 'fat guy' who not rich, ....the most important he very understanding and caring. This make her felf that she cant ever find this type of man from a rich man. They broke up boz there her ex husband came back to her and that time she dont know who to choose ( whether to choose someone who satisfied all her requirements or someone who dont satisfy her requirement but Lover her so much and care her so much). The fat guy found out they still contact each other, so he angry and gone. Solution: May sending him one email per day about her life and telling him how much she miss him. Besides that, she also never hope that he will be back, but just move on her life.by adopted few children to accompany her life. The end, the guy know her changes and back to her :)
What i learned from this story is to keep moving on my life although now he no twith me anymore, But, i no need to give up, boz i believe GOD will bring us together back in the future and wan to let him see the changes on me. I am sure he will confirm 100% fall in love with me again.
Besides this, there is also another sign telling me i need to move on for him. While i reading the entertainment news, 2 singers have been together again while they alr broke up last 2 years for some reasons and next year they getting married. This really motivate me with full of energy getting him back :)
So, from now on....i need to reduce checking him out so often.
One week can only check his facebook for 3 times.
No contact with him until i am ready by showing him the changes of me...
Please support me if u r my true friends :)
Bad news
Today morning received a sms from Shiew Mei saying that her grandmother pass away 'peacefully'
Peacefully should be a GOOD thing i hope
Really miss her grandmother, remind me of secondary moments i used to visit to her house
Peacefully should be a GOOD thing i hope
Really miss her grandmother, remind me of secondary moments i used to visit to her house
I went there for :
dinner
overnight
Hokkien Mee
waiting Shiew Mei for shopping time
and
a lot more.......
dinner
overnight
Hokkien Mee
waiting Shiew Mei for shopping time
and
a lot more.......
Her grandmother was friendly, kind and cute
She alw ask me i eat alr or not and all..
Alw concern me....
She also gave me ang pao when i visited her house
She really nice
Wish her all the best and happy in the heaven
We will staying here to pray for the best for her
Bye bye grandmother ...TAKE GOOD CARE
She alw ask me i eat alr or not and all..
Alw concern me....
She also gave me ang pao when i visited her house
She really nice
Wish her all the best and happy in the heaven
We will staying here to pray for the best for her
Bye bye grandmother ...TAKE GOOD CARE
Saturday, October 17, 2009
BBQ + Steamboat buffet
When to this place recommended by my relatives
How greedy am i???
afternoon didnt have my lunch boz i wan to keep my stomach empty to fit all the food as much as possible at night
So that, nobody will said i come for nothg and i wasting money boz they judged by my size
The most valuable food we keep taking :
'Tai Zhi" - delicious
The BBQ part...i like the meat so much...taste so nice :)
Until now, i sitll feeling full......cant sleep yet...
So busy eating all the times, so dont really have times to take down pictures of the food we had
This was what my cousin cooked the end with all the prawns
We ate alot of prawns there aslo :)
I had time to take this down boz i alr quited full on that time
Besides that, we had ice-cream there--- i had 2 cups
I AM FAT FAT FAT allr
They aslo served jelly too
BEST thing with this restorant would be the service
The boss really nice and freindly
The workers there aslo acted damn fast ...
Food also fresh and not kaim siap to serve us..since that is buffet style, some boss will kedekut to serve their expensive food
Confirm going there again and bring more friends and relatives there :)
The most i am wishing is..bring HIm there to try this out..i know he will like it boz we used to go Yuen (sunway there) having the steamboat buffet.
Of coz we went alot of different place to try out all the buffet steamboat and bbq..I MISS that moments
How greedy am i???
afternoon didnt have my lunch boz i wan to keep my stomach empty to fit all the food as much as possible at night
So that, nobody will said i come for nothg and i wasting money boz they judged by my size
The most valuable food we keep taking :
'Tai Zhi" - delicious
The BBQ part...i like the meat so much...taste so nice :)
Until now, i sitll feeling full......cant sleep yet...
So busy eating all the times, so dont really have times to take down pictures of the food we had
This was what my cousin cooked the end with all the prawns
We ate alot of prawns there aslo :)
I had time to take this down boz i alr quited full on that time
Besides that, we had ice-cream there--- i had 2 cups
I AM FAT FAT FAT allr
They aslo served jelly too
BEST thing with this restorant would be the service
The boss really nice and freindly
The workers there aslo acted damn fast ...
Food also fresh and not kaim siap to serve us..since that is buffet style, some boss will kedekut to serve their expensive food
Confirm going there again and bring more friends and relatives there :)
The most i am wishing is..bring HIm there to try this out..i know he will like it boz we used to go Yuen (sunway there) having the steamboat buffet.
Of coz we went alot of different place to try out all the buffet steamboat and bbq..I MISS that moments
Me... missing ....Him...
I am missing him right now...
didnt see him on9 at all...
He should be outside with friends or family???
I really want to know what he doing on every moment
Boz i miss him badly
While missing him.....
and waiting for my night dinner at the bbq buffer with mother and relatives
I edited some of the pictures
Today is Low Tian Ser's wife birthday :)
Happy Birthday...
Hope to take alot more pictures later on the bbq buffer since everyone keep saying it is super nice at Kepong area
I am from kepong, so how could i not trying that before but i said i from kepong..
HAHA
P/S: in the future i will recommend to HIM since he like all this buffer style food so much Hopefully the next time i will be going with him. :) MISS U
didnt see him on9 at all...
He should be outside with friends or family???
I really want to know what he doing on every moment
Boz i miss him badly
While missing him.....
and waiting for my night dinner at the bbq buffer with mother and relatives
I edited some of the pictures
Today is Low Tian Ser's wife birthday :)
Happy Birthday...
Hope to take alot more pictures later on the bbq buffer since everyone keep saying it is super nice at Kepong area
I am from kepong, so how could i not trying that before but i said i from kepong..
HAHA
P/S: in the future i will recommend to HIM since he like all this buffer style food so much Hopefully the next time i will be going with him. :) MISS U
Wedding Dinner @ Sri Petaling
We spent around 4 hours doing hair at the saloon
HAHA...y so long???
Boz 3 person doing together and not alot of ppl working there
One hairstylist and one assistant did for 3 of us
I did colour and treatment, my mum did colour and also curl her hair, my auntie did colour, curl her hair and also treatment
That's y we spent so long time there,
HAHA..another day of not working ( not i don't wan to work, everyone changed my appointment time)
Besides colour and treatment, i aslo did curl my hair for fun (just for the wedding dinner and to suit my dress )
I really like to ban leng leng go out for party...
I NEED PARTY.....to enjoy my life
of coz...today i still miss him....
keep hoping he still with me.and he can see how pretty am i
As usual, i will ask him... 'whether today i pretty or not??'
HE will answered me ' Pretty, in my heart u r my princess.'
But, now...i really hope he still feel the same
Wishing the best everyday
Just saw his fb's pic and all his outing, i know he will update in his blog too
Hope to know more about him, i miss him so much...
Hope i wont hurt or sad after reading his blog ..BE STRONG
Let's look at what i took on the wedding dinner :
HAHA...y so long???
Boz 3 person doing together and not alot of ppl working there
One hairstylist and one assistant did for 3 of us
I did colour and treatment, my mum did colour and also curl her hair, my auntie did colour, curl her hair and also treatment
That's y we spent so long time there,
HAHA..another day of not working ( not i don't wan to work, everyone changed my appointment time)
Besides colour and treatment, i aslo did curl my hair for fun (just for the wedding dinner and to suit my dress )
I really like to ban leng leng go out for party...
I NEED PARTY.....to enjoy my life
of coz...today i still miss him....
keep hoping he still with me.and he can see how pretty am i
As usual, i will ask him... 'whether today i pretty or not??'
HE will answered me ' Pretty, in my heart u r my princess.'
But, now...i really hope he still feel the same
Wishing the best everyday
Just saw his fb's pic and all his outing, i know he will update in his blog too
Hope to know more about him, i miss him so much...
Hope i wont hurt or sad after reading his blog ..BE STRONG
Let's look at what i took on the wedding dinner :
1st :
This was the menu we had, not so clear but better than cant see :)
Most of the food i didnt take down , boz we were too hungry boz the dinner started at 9 plus
Sometime boz i forgot to take down the pic for the food
2nd:
Pictures with baby
( baby don't wan let me hug and take pic, he wan fatter ppl..HAHA...his parent said so)
like i am forcing him to take picture with a leng lui..HAHA
Pictures with cousin
Just tell us...Pretty or not..?? HAHA
My brother with the baby :
My mother with the baby :
Prefect picture...he so guai to let my mother hug :)
3rd
My cousin's pic
Sweet Sweet Sweet
4th:
After all this..of coz if i didnt finish up my battery of my camera i wont be happy
HAHA..
So, i camwhore all the time in the room
Hopefully dont look too bad :)
Just show one first
Updated my own pic soon..
Tired
I wan to edit with frame before posting :)
This was the menu we had, not so clear but better than cant see :)
Most of the food i didnt take down , boz we were too hungry boz the dinner started at 9 plus
Sometime boz i forgot to take down the pic for the food
2nd:
Pictures with baby
( baby don't wan let me hug and take pic, he wan fatter ppl..HAHA...his parent said so)
like i am forcing him to take picture with a leng lui..HAHA
Pictures with cousin
Just tell us...Pretty or not..?? HAHA
My brother with the baby :
My mother with the baby :
Prefect picture...he so guai to let my mother hug :)
3rd
My cousin's pic
Sweet Sweet Sweet
4th:
After all this..of coz if i didnt finish up my battery of my camera i wont be happy
HAHA..
So, i camwhore all the time in the room
Hopefully dont look too bad :)
Just show one first
Updated my own pic soon..
Tired
I wan to edit with frame before posting :)
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Another..LAZy day
OMG..today didnt work again :(
Didnt meet anybody for case open
But, i went out with Winnie to find out the stocks for my on9 shopping website
I saw some that i really LOVE..but really expensive
I really wan to success in my on9 shopping website, boz i dont wan let him thk i alw do half way
I wan to continue our love with this website
We opened that together, and i hope it will continue forever
Today is the sushi king's day with rm2 for all the sushi
Last year i went with HIM and i enjoyed so much with all the sushi we ate
But this year he went without me,
I still remember we lined up outside the sushi king for almost one hour on that time
But, for me ..i dont thk that was long, boz he beside me
I really enjoy doing all the thing with him
When i heard of this sushi king thing, the first thing came out my mind was him
I know he went there with his mother at leisure mall's sushi king
I wish i am there also, but of coz...that is impossible at this moment :(
Really everything in my mind all related to him
I MISS HIM
Anyway, hope everyone will support my on9 shopping business
so that, i will continue our love forever with no ending
Didnt meet anybody for case open
But, i went out with Winnie to find out the stocks for my on9 shopping website
I saw some that i really LOVE..but really expensive
I really wan to success in my on9 shopping website, boz i dont wan let him thk i alw do half way
I wan to continue our love with this website
We opened that together, and i hope it will continue forever
Today is the sushi king's day with rm2 for all the sushi
Last year i went with HIM and i enjoyed so much with all the sushi we ate
But this year he went without me,
I still remember we lined up outside the sushi king for almost one hour on that time
But, for me ..i dont thk that was long, boz he beside me
I really enjoy doing all the thing with him
When i heard of this sushi king thing, the first thing came out my mind was him
I know he went there with his mother at leisure mall's sushi king
I wish i am there also, but of coz...that is impossible at this moment :(
Really everything in my mind all related to him
I MISS HIM
Anyway, hope everyone will support my on9 shopping business
so that, i will continue our love forever with no ending
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Have new bag :)
This is the bag, but mine different colour :)
My one is in BROWN
Actually not mine..HAHA
My mother bought for herself, but i always take hers when i like it
HAHA..
Like few handbag she bought i took it and put in my room, until now she never use it
I am the one who using all those bags
SO, actually indirectly all the bags belong to me
At least today something make me happy
GOD BLESS
My one is in BROWN
Actually not mine..HAHA
My mother bought for herself, but i always take hers when i like it
HAHA..
Like few handbag she bought i took it and put in my room, until now she never use it
I am the one who using all those bags
SO, actually indirectly all the bags belong to me
At least today something make me happy
GOD BLESS
Trying hard to start my new life
Today will be the day i follow my plan not to keep in touch with him anymore
Although my heart very pain and i really miss him deeply until now, but i need to follow my plan till the time i can really put him down
( boz i guess this is the best way to be his true friend again in the future, mayb in the future we will back together again boz of fate.....I wish to)
Wish everyone will wish me all the best on this
I wish the end, me n him will be best friend last time at least
I really lost of focus on my work for this 2 days
I will be disappointed my manager if she know i such a failure like this boz of all the emotional feeling
I HAVE to go back working hard on tomorrow n TRY my best to get over with him
N keep telling myself....i will treat him as friend
( n i guess my another part of my mind or heart will be hoping him to come back....)
Tomorrow will be his birthday and i decided not to wish him
But, i will wish him in my heart 'HAppy Birthday Dear'
Really will support him in everything through my true heart
I have to BLOCK him on msn in order to fulfill the 'no contact rule' with him
If i am ready i will start to be his friend again
HOpe he wont mind i sudd lost of control again and do all this stupid things again while he alr start accepting me as friend
(boz i really scared in the future i will do something to make him further away from me while i am not ready yet. I learnt alot of other ppl articles and comments from internet, hope all those will be helping me around with this)
Really need support from everyone on this period of time
Hope everyone will pray for me with my this decision :)
Of coz i believe my cousin and best friends will support me in this.
Thanks alot *muacks*
* wont be updating about the Generation of Life Part 3 till my mood toward that post back
* I really HATE my lost of focus on my work and everything..i dont wan to screw up my life boz of him, but he himself living so happily now. I wan to make him happy to know i aslo happy boz i grow mature all boz of him.
* sudd hav such decision also boz i listen to a client i just met saying ' dont ever listen to anyone, just follow whatever u like to do..this will be helping u to get back urself'. I have 2 signals to tell me to using the no contract rule today, so i need to use it and i wish it helps me along my way.
Although my heart very pain and i really miss him deeply until now, but i need to follow my plan till the time i can really put him down
( boz i guess this is the best way to be his true friend again in the future, mayb in the future we will back together again boz of fate.....I wish to)
Wish everyone will wish me all the best on this
I wish the end, me n him will be best friend last time at least
I really lost of focus on my work for this 2 days
I will be disappointed my manager if she know i such a failure like this boz of all the emotional feeling
I HAVE to go back working hard on tomorrow n TRY my best to get over with him
N keep telling myself....i will treat him as friend
( n i guess my another part of my mind or heart will be hoping him to come back....)
Tomorrow will be his birthday and i decided not to wish him
But, i will wish him in my heart 'HAppy Birthday Dear'
Really will support him in everything through my true heart
I have to BLOCK him on msn in order to fulfill the 'no contact rule' with him
If i am ready i will start to be his friend again
HOpe he wont mind i sudd lost of control again and do all this stupid things again while he alr start accepting me as friend
(boz i really scared in the future i will do something to make him further away from me while i am not ready yet. I learnt alot of other ppl articles and comments from internet, hope all those will be helping me around with this)
Really need support from everyone on this period of time
Hope everyone will pray for me with my this decision :)
Of coz i believe my cousin and best friends will support me in this.
Thanks alot *muacks*
* wont be updating about the Generation of Life Part 3 till my mood toward that post back
* I really HATE my lost of focus on my work and everything..i dont wan to screw up my life boz of him, but he himself living so happily now. I wan to make him happy to know i aslo happy boz i grow mature all boz of him.
* sudd hav such decision also boz i listen to a client i just met saying ' dont ever listen to anyone, just follow whatever u like to do..this will be helping u to get back urself'. I have 2 signals to tell me to using the no contract rule today, so i need to use it and i wish it helps me along my way.
Monday, October 12, 2009
Generation of Life Program - Part 2
Second : The song about father
When the song played for the first time, i dont really have a very big feeling
but after the 'teacher' said something after it played, then only i started IN the song when it played the 2nd time.
My mind :
Remind me of my dad's love when he concerned me when i had my skin allergy and also when i argued with him on the phone 'when i heard he said {break up} and i cant accept he going to leave me alone behind' just the day before my graduation. I really have the phobia toward the graduation ceremony. From last time until now i dont really can feel the love from my dad and i also thought i dont really love my dad so much also. Until the song come in my mind, i felt actually my dad love me so much but just he dont really know how to express it out to me.
Still remember on that night i argued with him on phone.
I was so sad and my feeling uncontrollable till my dad heard of my voice.
He came in n took my phone away n talked to him.
Really sorry to him, i dont know my dad will take my phone away from me and talk to u.
Hope u can forgive him, boz he actually just love me and dont wan see i hurt.
Boz when my dad came in my room, so obvoius my eyes were red and my feeling was bad till the max
THe end, my dad also told me that if got anything must tell us, dont alw keep inside
But, the end i didnt tell my dad anything boz i keep everythg inside my heart
I really sorry to my dad i bluff him so manytimes boz of HIM. I know HE scared of my dad, in order to make HIM happy and comfortable, i will be the one who bluffing my dad and i go find him till late night n go his house.
SORRY DADDY...i know u love me
I know my dad actually accept HIM and let me go out with HIM most of times
During CNY also my dad willing to let HIM drive our car and follow our family members for lunch at somewhere. This shown my dad actually treated him as part of our family,also but everything alr past and HE already gone far far far away
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Third : The song about husband and wife
I thought i dont have any feeling when they played the song boz i aso not yet married and i dont hav bf also.
When the song played for the first time, i dont really have a very big feeling
but after the 'teacher' said something after it played, then only i started IN the song when it played the 2nd time.
My mind :
Remind me of my dad's love when he concerned me when i had my skin allergy and also when i argued with him on the phone 'when i heard he said {break up} and i cant accept he going to leave me alone behind' just the day before my graduation. I really have the phobia toward the graduation ceremony. From last time until now i dont really can feel the love from my dad and i also thought i dont really love my dad so much also. Until the song come in my mind, i felt actually my dad love me so much but just he dont really know how to express it out to me.
Still remember on that night i argued with him on phone.
I was so sad and my feeling uncontrollable till my dad heard of my voice.
He came in n took my phone away n talked to him.
Really sorry to him, i dont know my dad will take my phone away from me and talk to u.
Hope u can forgive him, boz he actually just love me and dont wan see i hurt.
Boz when my dad came in my room, so obvoius my eyes were red and my feeling was bad till the max
THe end, my dad also told me that if got anything must tell us, dont alw keep inside
But, the end i didnt tell my dad anything boz i keep everythg inside my heart
I really sorry to my dad i bluff him so manytimes boz of HIM. I know HE scared of my dad, in order to make HIM happy and comfortable, i will be the one who bluffing my dad and i go find him till late night n go his house.
SORRY DADDY...i know u love me
I know my dad actually accept HIM and let me go out with HIM most of times
During CNY also my dad willing to let HIM drive our car and follow our family members for lunch at somewhere. This shown my dad actually treated him as part of our family,also but everything alr past and HE already gone far far far away
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Third : The song about husband and wife
I thought i dont have any feeling when they played the song boz i aso not yet married and i dont hav bf also.
but, HIS face came out on my mind.
Really wan to know why is it like this on that moment.
I guess should be boz of the lyrics actually about how husband and wife happy together till the end and the wife will alw beside the husband no matter how the husband treated her.
Besides that, the most important sentence ' Husband will wan the wife to go to the heaven first before he left to the heaven boz he dont wan to see the wife crying sadly when he gone first'
This sentence remind me of HIM deeply , he did say the something same as this before to me. No matter how ' he will wan me to go to the heaven first before he leave me, boz he know i will be sad n crying every moment if he leave to the heaven earlier than me'. Till now, this sentence still stick in my mind, but i guess he alr forgot whatever he said to me.
My mind:
I really put my heart inside that relationship, so when he said he going to leave me, i cant accept it.
I will want to say sorry to HIM toward unaceptable break up. SORRY..i really not mean to trouble u when u alr dont need me anymore. really sorry for everything i did in the past.
For me, in the song make me realised actually i really think he will be my future husband and we will live together forever.
That's y no matter what he wan i will give as he wish. Remember i used to very 'manja'???
But i changed for HIM, Really appreacited u changed my bad habit.
Athough that time i not change immediately, alot of unhappy incidents happen before i fully changed my this bad habit, but i still hope he can feel how much effort i put in to change myself as he wish.
when on my way back to home, i was so depress and sad boz of the journey from cheras back to my home.
The course held at cheras, that's y along the way back home- our past keep coming out n show infront on my eye
I still remember along the journey back home, i felt so sad and lonely. But, last time when i back from his house, i never feel that..the onl things on my mind will be : i have will be i need to go home earlier , dont wan to let him worry..the first thing i need to do when i reached home is to let him know. I need to drive safely boz i dont wan him to worry. I miss his voice, so the first thing i reached home will be calling him.
But, now everything opposite, i dont kn y i need to be home, i dont know y i need to be safe, i felt the journey back home was so long. My tears alw out when i on my way back to home from cheras. This will be the onl feeling i got after he left me behind.
I also remember, last time when i wan to go his house, i never feel it is far or long journey.
Although it was jam, i still feel ok..boz the most important i can meet him after the long jam.
I never have the feeling 'long' and waste time during the journey to his house
But, now i will try my best not to hav the appointments there, but cheras is the only place i know that near ampang or whatever place. So, i will stil alw call my clients meet at cheras if they cant go PJ or KEpong.
Really appreacite he tought me the road at cheras, although now still not like super good on it, but at least got 60% i know the road there. Thanks so much to U
Actually my dream last time is happy together with him, and hold hand with him till we old age
I support him no matter what happen to him, no matter how sad he is, i will still wan to beside him
Boz i truely in love with him that time
Although i dont really know he truely in love with me before or not, but i believed he did.
At least he really treated me THE BEST when we were together.
Really thanks alot to ur love in the past.
I care our relationship so much, that's y until this stage i wish to keep our friendship closely.
I dont hope to lost u this closed friend that we used to love each other.
No matter how deep he hurt me, how bad he treated me this past few months, in my heart i really didnt angry him at all...i really forgive his everythg
I really hope no matter how, we will still the best close friend that can talk anything without pretending.
* actually about HIM i really got too much feeling on it until i cant finish writing it out, but i hope i can just keep it deep in my heart without disturbing him anymore *
In the end, i wan to tell him - thanks alot for ur love last time, thanks for letting me grow more mature throughtout our relationship, Thanks for everything. I really appreacited the love u used to give me. If u wan me to totally 100% forget u, i am sorry i really cant do it until now. the onl thing i can do is to put the love in a very deep place in my heart and hide it. Hope u understand, wont angry me boz of my love to u. If got chance i really wish u read whatever feeling i had for u and also telling me slowly as a friend to make me dont feel so hurt anymore. i really pretend until very tired already boz too many things remind me of u in my life .I really truely using my heart WISHing u all the best in ur life.
Really wan to know why is it like this on that moment.
I guess should be boz of the lyrics actually about how husband and wife happy together till the end and the wife will alw beside the husband no matter how the husband treated her.
Besides that, the most important sentence ' Husband will wan the wife to go to the heaven first before he left to the heaven boz he dont wan to see the wife crying sadly when he gone first'
This sentence remind me of HIM deeply , he did say the something same as this before to me. No matter how ' he will wan me to go to the heaven first before he leave me, boz he know i will be sad n crying every moment if he leave to the heaven earlier than me'. Till now, this sentence still stick in my mind, but i guess he alr forgot whatever he said to me.
My mind:
I really put my heart inside that relationship, so when he said he going to leave me, i cant accept it.
I will want to say sorry to HIM toward unaceptable break up. SORRY..i really not mean to trouble u when u alr dont need me anymore. really sorry for everything i did in the past.
For me, in the song make me realised actually i really think he will be my future husband and we will live together forever.
That's y no matter what he wan i will give as he wish. Remember i used to very 'manja'???
But i changed for HIM, Really appreacited u changed my bad habit.
Athough that time i not change immediately, alot of unhappy incidents happen before i fully changed my this bad habit, but i still hope he can feel how much effort i put in to change myself as he wish.
when on my way back to home, i was so depress and sad boz of the journey from cheras back to my home.
The course held at cheras, that's y along the way back home- our past keep coming out n show infront on my eye
I still remember along the journey back home, i felt so sad and lonely. But, last time when i back from his house, i never feel that..the onl things on my mind will be : i have will be i need to go home earlier , dont wan to let him worry..the first thing i need to do when i reached home is to let him know. I need to drive safely boz i dont wan him to worry. I miss his voice, so the first thing i reached home will be calling him.
But, now everything opposite, i dont kn y i need to be home, i dont know y i need to be safe, i felt the journey back home was so long. My tears alw out when i on my way back to home from cheras. This will be the onl feeling i got after he left me behind.
I also remember, last time when i wan to go his house, i never feel it is far or long journey.
Although it was jam, i still feel ok..boz the most important i can meet him after the long jam.
I never have the feeling 'long' and waste time during the journey to his house
But, now i will try my best not to hav the appointments there, but cheras is the only place i know that near ampang or whatever place. So, i will stil alw call my clients meet at cheras if they cant go PJ or KEpong.
Really appreacite he tought me the road at cheras, although now still not like super good on it, but at least got 60% i know the road there. Thanks so much to U
Actually my dream last time is happy together with him, and hold hand with him till we old age
I support him no matter what happen to him, no matter how sad he is, i will still wan to beside him
Boz i truely in love with him that time
Although i dont really know he truely in love with me before or not, but i believed he did.
At least he really treated me THE BEST when we were together.
Really thanks alot to ur love in the past.
I care our relationship so much, that's y until this stage i wish to keep our friendship closely.
I dont hope to lost u this closed friend that we used to love each other.
No matter how deep he hurt me, how bad he treated me this past few months, in my heart i really didnt angry him at all...i really forgive his everythg
I really hope no matter how, we will still the best close friend that can talk anything without pretending.
* actually about HIM i really got too much feeling on it until i cant finish writing it out, but i hope i can just keep it deep in my heart without disturbing him anymore *
In the end, i wan to tell him - thanks alot for ur love last time, thanks for letting me grow more mature throughtout our relationship, Thanks for everything. I really appreacited the love u used to give me. If u wan me to totally 100% forget u, i am sorry i really cant do it until now. the onl thing i can do is to put the love in a very deep place in my heart and hide it. Hope u understand, wont angry me boz of my love to u. If got chance i really wish u read whatever feeling i had for u and also telling me slowly as a friend to make me dont feel so hurt anymore. i really pretend until very tired already boz too many things remind me of u in my life .I really truely using my heart WISHing u all the best in ur life.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Direction of life program 10-11 Oct 2009 - PART 1
Actually i learnt alot this 2 days in this program
At first, i didnt want to go to this program boz i dont even know the purpose, but of coz the end i just go since i also nothing important to do for this sat n sun
Really thanks alot to helpers there, my leader , group learder and group's members
THanks alot people...
We all went there for a same PURPOSE "TO LEARN" or can called it as 'TO IMPROVE OURSELVES'
I am the exception of coz, boz i dont even know the full details about this whole course
I will share whatever i felt there in my blog,
actually yesterday i reached home at 1 sth and i slept at 2 sth am, but i dont hav the TIRED feeling at all on that moment ..--------U KNOW WHY???
because i finally realized something on that night and this will really helpful when i go along my life
The most memorable or i should say the part of this course that i really IN the condition will be the part when they were playing songs in the dark environment
I found out that actually i will easily touch by songs
I alw try very hard to understand the lyrics of the songs n some imagine will come out from my mind ( This will the way to kill me and make me feel like shir when i go inside the songs)
So, i will share the 4 songs that they played to us and how i felt on that moment
(actually yesterday i alr cant wait to write whatever i felt on that moment, but it was really late and the next day i need to woke up at 6.30am---the end, i didnt blog it first)
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First : The song about the mother {This world only mother is the best}
( sorry to say that i dont kn how to type out the name of the songs in chinese)
When the song played for the first time,
the lyrics really touch my feeling and my tears out immediately without any intention of acting or what
The meaning of the lyrics about this "children who have mother really 'xin fu', but children who dont have mother with them, the children will be like a grass'
My mind :
If i dont hav mother with me, i cant imagine how can i live. I didnt realised that i actually really very 'xin fu' boz my mother alw try her best to give me the things that i want. Then, this incident out on my mind. My mother know i unhappy for this few months, on my birthday she wrote me a paper and wish me happy birthday. Besides that, she gave the 'ang ku' that i like to eat with the paper. This really never happen before, and i really felt the LOVE from mother. She know i heart broken with someone and she really dont hope i will be unhappy sad during my birthday.THANks alot mother. I LOVE U. My skin now actually alegry and waiting for time to recover and i can felt my mum like so care of me boz she will keep asking me 'do u wan to drink this or not? i buy for u. Boz last time i used to drink that evrymorning but now stopped already since my mum didnt buy it, but boz of me she start to buying it again FOR ME. Really thanks alot to my mother.
Not only i want to tell my mother i love her, but also i want to say sorry boz i bluff her so many times when i was in love with HIM. Actually mother told me alot of times ' dont simply trust people, dont simply 'sit tai' to others ya, dont do all the bad things ya', but i dont really listen to it. SORRY mother. Besides that, i bluff her that i went my friend's house and sleep or play, but actually i went to his house and sleep. I regret that i alw said i will be back later later later when she called me, but actually i still with him outside enjoying or at his house relaxing. I saw my mum slept at my bro's room when i finished some of my parties with him and i will woke her up when i went inside to use the toilet. ( I know she purposely sleep there, boz she want to know what time i am back). But, after that, i will go with him to his house without my mum's permission ( sometimes i hav permission with valid reason, sometime i hav permission with fake reason and sometimes just without any permission). SORRY to my mother. This one cant blame HIM also, i know he missed me that time, i also missed him so much and loved him so much, so i put him so important until i forget my own mother. As a daughter, i felt sorry that i didnt all this things to hurt my mother so deep.I really hope i will never do all this things to hurt my mother anymore. At lot more i felt for my mother, so my tears kept coming out on that moment and non stop....i onl wan to tell myself ' i will never leave my mother alone..i wan to be with her forever'. I felt sorry to mother about my graduation day. I really thought she dont wan to come on that day, so we lack of communication on that time. Boz my whole heart n mind only thinking of HIM. Before the graduation night i argued with him n i was really very hurt n sad boz he cant come to my graduation boz i waited his sms for the whole long time after we argued before his exam. He said he wan to cool down n will talk to me after the exam. I really wait wait wait wait....with the hope he will talk nicely to me n will come to my graduation. But very sadly he told me he 'cant'. After that, my heart really broken n cant even talk to anyone anymore, so i didnt communicate with my parent at all and my mother thought he will go there n support me--boz my mother really trust him he will take care me, but the end,,,he broke my heart deeply.I still cant forget the sad feeling on my graduation day. i pretend to be happy until very tired..i really tired already. At frist i really dont wan to go for the graduation anymore since my heart also not there alr, but i dont wan to let my friends worry me or my mother worry me, so i need to pretend to be happy there and went there with my soul not there. I can pretend to be happy also boz of the call on the morning i received from my mother. she called n asked me ' r u ok or not? everythg ok already???' and i just answered ' ok...i am fine one' boz i simply answer her only. I really sorry to her...boz i didnt ans with my heart when she so concern me T.T I am really sorry also when i start thinking i treated him better than my own mother actually. On his birthday i bought him whatever he need with whatever price, but i didnt even try to thking what my mum needs when her birthday. I never send her a gift with my really true heart, but i sent to HIM. I really regret i treat other ppl that dont care me better than ppl who care me so much . When i thk of this my tears will just come out always. I really know i am bad daughter, i dont even really remember my mother's birthday but i remember his birthday deep in my heart. WHAT IS THIS...such a stupid daughter.
In this song, i not only want to appreciate my mother but also his mother. Actually i really can feel his mother's LOVE to him and also to me. When i at his house, the mother will alw ask whether i eat or not. Besides that, when late alr, then i still there, the mother will ask me frive carefully or better dont drive home because dangerous. She also alw told me about all the snatch thefts incidents in the newspaper to remind me to becareful. I actually aslo quite LOVE his mother in term of all this. Although sometime i abit not happy boz she alw last minute called the son to do her stuff, when the son alr promised me to do my stuff earlier first. OF coz i abit not happy, but i really didnt angry her or him at all. Boz i understand his mother really important to him, n mother really everythg. I really sorry to her boz last time i didnt unhappy boz of that. if got chance i really hope to be friend with her as a close friend. I really know when i with her son, she really treated me as her own daughter too..I really wan to say sorry to her for whatever i did bad at HK or the past to her. SORRY AUNTIE..I really appreciate her love to me also. If she dont mind i also wish to be her kai daughter.and then i will repay back her with my love boz i guess last time i didnt really show the love to her...Thanks ya
will be continuted by tomorrow....:)
Boz really tired already
At first, i didnt want to go to this program boz i dont even know the purpose, but of coz the end i just go since i also nothing important to do for this sat n sun
Really thanks alot to helpers there, my leader , group learder and group's members
THanks alot people...
We all went there for a same PURPOSE "TO LEARN" or can called it as 'TO IMPROVE OURSELVES'
I am the exception of coz, boz i dont even know the full details about this whole course
I will share whatever i felt there in my blog,
actually yesterday i reached home at 1 sth and i slept at 2 sth am, but i dont hav the TIRED feeling at all on that moment ..--------U KNOW WHY???
because i finally realized something on that night and this will really helpful when i go along my life
The most memorable or i should say the part of this course that i really IN the condition will be the part when they were playing songs in the dark environment
I found out that actually i will easily touch by songs
I alw try very hard to understand the lyrics of the songs n some imagine will come out from my mind ( This will the way to kill me and make me feel like shir when i go inside the songs)
So, i will share the 4 songs that they played to us and how i felt on that moment
(actually yesterday i alr cant wait to write whatever i felt on that moment, but it was really late and the next day i need to woke up at 6.30am---the end, i didnt blog it first)
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First : The song about the mother {This world only mother is the best}
( sorry to say that i dont kn how to type out the name of the songs in chinese)
When the song played for the first time,
the lyrics really touch my feeling and my tears out immediately without any intention of acting or what
The meaning of the lyrics about this "children who have mother really 'xin fu', but children who dont have mother with them, the children will be like a grass'
My mind :
If i dont hav mother with me, i cant imagine how can i live. I didnt realised that i actually really very 'xin fu' boz my mother alw try her best to give me the things that i want. Then, this incident out on my mind. My mother know i unhappy for this few months, on my birthday she wrote me a paper and wish me happy birthday. Besides that, she gave the 'ang ku' that i like to eat with the paper. This really never happen before, and i really felt the LOVE from mother. She know i heart broken with someone and she really dont hope i will be unhappy sad during my birthday.THANks alot mother. I LOVE U. My skin now actually alegry and waiting for time to recover and i can felt my mum like so care of me boz she will keep asking me 'do u wan to drink this or not? i buy for u. Boz last time i used to drink that evrymorning but now stopped already since my mum didnt buy it, but boz of me she start to buying it again FOR ME. Really thanks alot to my mother.
Not only i want to tell my mother i love her, but also i want to say sorry boz i bluff her so many times when i was in love with HIM. Actually mother told me alot of times ' dont simply trust people, dont simply 'sit tai' to others ya, dont do all the bad things ya', but i dont really listen to it. SORRY mother. Besides that, i bluff her that i went my friend's house and sleep or play, but actually i went to his house and sleep. I regret that i alw said i will be back later later later when she called me, but actually i still with him outside enjoying or at his house relaxing. I saw my mum slept at my bro's room when i finished some of my parties with him and i will woke her up when i went inside to use the toilet. ( I know she purposely sleep there, boz she want to know what time i am back). But, after that, i will go with him to his house without my mum's permission ( sometimes i hav permission with valid reason, sometime i hav permission with fake reason and sometimes just without any permission). SORRY to my mother. This one cant blame HIM also, i know he missed me that time, i also missed him so much and loved him so much, so i put him so important until i forget my own mother. As a daughter, i felt sorry that i didnt all this things to hurt my mother so deep.I really hope i will never do all this things to hurt my mother anymore. At lot more i felt for my mother, so my tears kept coming out on that moment and non stop....i onl wan to tell myself ' i will never leave my mother alone..i wan to be with her forever'. I felt sorry to mother about my graduation day. I really thought she dont wan to come on that day, so we lack of communication on that time. Boz my whole heart n mind only thinking of HIM. Before the graduation night i argued with him n i was really very hurt n sad boz he cant come to my graduation boz i waited his sms for the whole long time after we argued before his exam. He said he wan to cool down n will talk to me after the exam. I really wait wait wait wait....with the hope he will talk nicely to me n will come to my graduation. But very sadly he told me he 'cant'. After that, my heart really broken n cant even talk to anyone anymore, so i didnt communicate with my parent at all and my mother thought he will go there n support me--boz my mother really trust him he will take care me, but the end,,,he broke my heart deeply.I still cant forget the sad feeling on my graduation day. i pretend to be happy until very tired..i really tired already. At frist i really dont wan to go for the graduation anymore since my heart also not there alr, but i dont wan to let my friends worry me or my mother worry me, so i need to pretend to be happy there and went there with my soul not there. I can pretend to be happy also boz of the call on the morning i received from my mother. she called n asked me ' r u ok or not? everythg ok already???' and i just answered ' ok...i am fine one' boz i simply answer her only. I really sorry to her...boz i didnt ans with my heart when she so concern me T.T I am really sorry also when i start thinking i treated him better than my own mother actually. On his birthday i bought him whatever he need with whatever price, but i didnt even try to thking what my mum needs when her birthday. I never send her a gift with my really true heart, but i sent to HIM. I really regret i treat other ppl that dont care me better than ppl who care me so much . When i thk of this my tears will just come out always. I really know i am bad daughter, i dont even really remember my mother's birthday but i remember his birthday deep in my heart. WHAT IS THIS...such a stupid daughter.
In this song, i not only want to appreciate my mother but also his mother. Actually i really can feel his mother's LOVE to him and also to me. When i at his house, the mother will alw ask whether i eat or not. Besides that, when late alr, then i still there, the mother will ask me frive carefully or better dont drive home because dangerous. She also alw told me about all the snatch thefts incidents in the newspaper to remind me to becareful. I actually aslo quite LOVE his mother in term of all this. Although sometime i abit not happy boz she alw last minute called the son to do her stuff, when the son alr promised me to do my stuff earlier first. OF coz i abit not happy, but i really didnt angry her or him at all. Boz i understand his mother really important to him, n mother really everythg. I really sorry to her boz last time i didnt unhappy boz of that. if got chance i really hope to be friend with her as a close friend. I really know when i with her son, she really treated me as her own daughter too..I really wan to say sorry to her for whatever i did bad at HK or the past to her. SORRY AUNTIE..I really appreciate her love to me also. If she dont mind i also wish to be her kai daughter.and then i will repay back her with my love boz i guess last time i didnt really show the love to her...Thanks ya
will be continuted by tomorrow....:)
Boz really tired already
Friday, October 09, 2009
This week outing :) and my sad toe
First will see my injured toe :(
So pain till now my whole leg also like quite pain sometime boz i stand long yesterday due to working
So pain till now my whole leg also like quite pain sometime boz i stand long yesterday due to working
Let's ZOOM in :
My usual normal leg should be so nice
But, i dont kn when that toe can become normal like this :
With the sad toe,
i am still wearing the high heels walking around.
SO sorry..TOE
Boz i need to wear it to work and i walked alot,
that's y my leg also quite pain due to that reason :(
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Wednesday : Prudential October Road Show 2009 @ Sunway & Spa hotel
Crowed with all the quality Prudential Wealth Planner, Agency Managers and MORE
of coz not onl like this...
actually more at another side
I quite shy to take pictures there, boz i was at the first roll
I really enjoyed alot there,
boz i can listen to all the successful ppl and met all the quality people
SOmetime i just need ENERGY to work :)
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TOday, i was lost again at the cheras maluri
I really cant understand the place there
This was my 3 times went there and i still will lost when the way back
STUPID
I hope i wont lost tomorrow ..GOD BLESS ME
Boz of this client i need to go there like for 3 times to close her little small case
(only rm100 per month)
I really dont wan to meet her at all actually,
i was avoiding her for like few days when she called me.
U will ask WHY today u met her then???
Actually just boz she gave me the buying signer that she wan the policy
So,
the end i closed the case and wasted like 3 hours there to listen her Ginseng direct sales business story.
DO u know how annoying when i listen to all this thing??
I DONT WANT IT NOW
( can u all actually understand??)
Just let me try first,
if it worked for me, then i will introduce of coz..
Boz everyone know, my skin super sensitive
SO, if my skin recover then nobody for others :)
Sometime they just dont listen to what i said
Wasted my time and i didnt do work at all
Monday i will kena scold by manager boz of that
I AM SURE :(
Tomorrow going to be the long day out for courses till 12 am and sunday at 8 am
SO i hope someone will offer me the place to stay for onl like 7 hours :)
HAVE A NICE DAY
I really cant understand the place there
This was my 3 times went there and i still will lost when the way back
STUPID
I hope i wont lost tomorrow ..GOD BLESS ME
Boz of this client i need to go there like for 3 times to close her little small case
(only rm100 per month)
I really dont wan to meet her at all actually,
i was avoiding her for like few days when she called me.
U will ask WHY today u met her then???
Actually just boz she gave me the buying signer that she wan the policy
So,
the end i closed the case and wasted like 3 hours there to listen her Ginseng direct sales business story.
DO u know how annoying when i listen to all this thing??
I DONT WANT IT NOW
( can u all actually understand??)
Just let me try first,
if it worked for me, then i will introduce of coz..
Boz everyone know, my skin super sensitive
SO, if my skin recover then nobody for others :)
Sometime they just dont listen to what i said
Wasted my time and i didnt do work at all
Monday i will kena scold by manager boz of that
I AM SURE :(
Tomorrow going to be the long day out for courses till 12 am and sunday at 8 am
SO i hope someone will offer me the place to stay for onl like 7 hours :)
HAVE A NICE DAY
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
OMG my TOE
OMG my toe really damn pain for last whole night
really cant sleep well the whole night
BOZ really very very very very pain
So, today didnt work for the whole day boz i cant really walk long
I guess already better abit, boz when i dont walk it will be ok ok
Hopefully faster recover then i can wear back my heel
If not how can i work for this period??? T.T
really cant sleep well the whole night
BOZ really very very very very pain
So, today didnt work for the whole day boz i cant really walk long
I guess already better abit, boz when i dont walk it will be ok ok
Hopefully faster recover then i can wear back my heel
If not how can i work for this period??? T.T
Monday, October 05, 2009
Monday really not a nice day at all
After the meeting with manager,
i was so lazy and straight away ahead to my home
Planned to find some ppl while i waiting for my night appointment at Leisure mall
Hopefully later i will get 3 quality clients there before my appointment
But, now i was so lazy to go to that place to find ppl, my mood was not there :(
Feel like staying home and keep listening to this song "The Climb"
This is the song that brought me up while i fall down again and again
Really in love with this song
Meaning full song for me on this 3 months when i fell down
Dont know y today feel quite sad...for no reason :(
Hopefully i not missing someone again this time
i was so lazy and straight away ahead to my home
Planned to find some ppl while i waiting for my night appointment at Leisure mall
Hopefully later i will get 3 quality clients there before my appointment
But, now i was so lazy to go to that place to find ppl, my mood was not there :(
Feel like staying home and keep listening to this song "The Climb"
This is the song that brought me up while i fall down again and again
Really in love with this song
Meaning full song for me on this 3 months when i fell down
Dont know y today feel quite sad...for no reason :(
Hopefully i not missing someone again this time
Let's look at the lyrics of The Climb :
I can almost see it,
The dream I'm dreamin'
But there's a voice inside my head sayin'
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My fate is shaking
But I gotta keep tryin'
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a up-hill battle
Sometimes were gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith woah
Gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a up-hill battle
Sometimes were gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes it might knock me down
But, No, I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember Most, yeah
Just gotta keep goin'
And, I, I got to be Strong
Just Keep pushing, oh
'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
Were always gonna wanna make it through
Always gonna be a up-hill battle
Sometimes were gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's The Climb
The dream I'm dreamin'
But there's a voice inside my head sayin'
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My fate is shaking
But I gotta keep tryin'
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a up-hill battle
Sometimes were gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith woah
Gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a up-hill battle
Sometimes were gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes it might knock me down
But, No, I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember Most, yeah
Just gotta keep goin'
And, I, I got to be Strong
Just Keep pushing, oh
'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
Were always gonna wanna make it through
Always gonna be a up-hill battle
Sometimes were gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's The Climb
This song really means alot to me, not only on my work but also inside my heart
Have to repeat it and repeat it until i will forget someone like last week
I will be strong and move on no matter how long it going to take
Although actually there is another mountain ( challenge) on the other side
Forget whatever it should forget and move on whatever i should do :)
OMG, my lip is pain :(
I drank alot of water already, but still...the side of my lip feeling so pain today
Hope after tonight my lip will be become normal and no more pain anymore
Really miss weekend so much
Have to repeat it and repeat it until i will forget someone like last week
I will be strong and move on no matter how long it going to take
Although actually there is another mountain ( challenge) on the other side
Forget whatever it should forget and move on whatever i should do :)
OMG, my lip is pain :(
I drank alot of water already, but still...the side of my lip feeling so pain today
Hope after tonight my lip will be become normal and no more pain anymore
Really miss weekend so much
Sunday, October 04, 2009
Sunday...how come weekend so fast end???
I love saturday and sunday so much
I can rest at home and do whatever i like
No need to think where can i get more ppl to see
Weekend really end very fast
Sometime i just hope the time can stop on weekend
Again,
I edited some f my pictures
I LOVE MYSELF till i keep playing around with the software boz i not really familiar with it yet
Please don't mind i keep posting my 'zhi lian' pictures
HAHA
This is so Christmas feel
I LOVE Christmas
Christmas is coming very soon :)
I can rest at home and do whatever i like
No need to think where can i get more ppl to see
Weekend really end very fast
Sometime i just hope the time can stop on weekend
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My cousin call me blog about my client's story :)
He age 25 now..Such a young man with single parent family
Come out work before the Form3 exam due to the family financial situation
Married 5 years ago and divorced already and i dont know when it happened
I guess should be the gal wanted to divorce boz as my client said...she like to 'feng tao' so much
My client dont wan to let her go 'feng tao' boz need to take care their babies, but...sometimes thing dont really go as smooth as whatever we wish
They already have like 2 babies ( one boy at age 5 and one boy at age 2)
Of coz the babies not with my client now, boz the ex wife sent them to her monther's side at sabah which at a very poor kampung
I asked ' why dont u bring them back togehter and take care them??'
He said ' Not i dont wan..but my ex wife dont let..and she is not the one who take care the babies but her mother. She at KL and work as a pub gal pouring drinks to all the customber at pub. Besides that, she can alw 'feng tao' also.."
What a sad story to hear about this..the lady is only like 26 years old. she wan to 'feng tao' until when ???
My client really learnt alot from this marriage and he really changed when the way he told me all this things
However, the happy thing is the 5 years old boy going to come to his side by November and he going to take care him :)
Wish them all the best :)
I will take care them too...with the insurance cover and give the best service to them
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Talking about guys
My cousin call me blog about my client's story :)
He age 25 now..Such a young man with single parent family
Come out work before the Form3 exam due to the family financial situation
Married 5 years ago and divorced already and i dont know when it happened
I guess should be the gal wanted to divorce boz as my client said...she like to 'feng tao' so much
My client dont wan to let her go 'feng tao' boz need to take care their babies, but...sometimes thing dont really go as smooth as whatever we wish
They already have like 2 babies ( one boy at age 5 and one boy at age 2)
Of coz the babies not with my client now, boz the ex wife sent them to her monther's side at sabah which at a very poor kampung
I asked ' why dont u bring them back togehter and take care them??'
He said ' Not i dont wan..but my ex wife dont let..and she is not the one who take care the babies but her mother. She at KL and work as a pub gal pouring drinks to all the customber at pub. Besides that, she can alw 'feng tao' also.."
What a sad story to hear about this..the lady is only like 26 years old. she wan to 'feng tao' until when ???
My client really learnt alot from this marriage and he really changed when the way he told me all this things
However, the happy thing is the 5 years old boy going to come to his side by November and he going to take care him :)
Wish them all the best :)
I will take care them too...with the insurance cover and give the best service to them
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Talking about guys
How come all the guys be good to be must get back some return???
As friends cant????
Sometime when u fall in love with someone who don't love u .....it is really hurt
But, really no choice :( Sadly to say that, and i really understand that feeling
actually Client really means client to me ...
I treat u as my friend + potential client in the future only ( No more extra than that)
I asked u to help me buy the kangaroo's skin just boz u went Australia and i didnt know u ....treat it so serious
I thought u help me buy that as a friend and i didnt know u called ur friend to find it for me door by door at Australia
I really appreciate that, but sorry to say...for me..i only can say THANKS
No other meaning behind the whole thing
Actually i know u like me, but sorry to say...i need to pretend i don't kn anything and treat u as a friend
So sorry to hurt u that day, i really didn't mean to hurt u so hard ya
Please forgive me for this
Lucky now everything had settled and go back to normal
We will still friend no matter how, please don't put anything in except friendship :)
SO the past u used to love me, i will forget it and treated it never happen before ya ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
As friends cant????
Sometime when u fall in love with someone who don't love u .....it is really hurt
But, really no choice :( Sadly to say that, and i really understand that feeling
actually Client really means client to me ...
I treat u as my friend + potential client in the future only ( No more extra than that)
I asked u to help me buy the kangaroo's skin just boz u went Australia and i didnt know u ....treat it so serious
I thought u help me buy that as a friend and i didnt know u called ur friend to find it for me door by door at Australia
I really appreciate that, but sorry to say...for me..i only can say THANKS
No other meaning behind the whole thing
Actually i know u like me, but sorry to say...i need to pretend i don't kn anything and treat u as a friend
So sorry to hurt u that day, i really didn't mean to hurt u so hard ya
Please forgive me for this
Lucky now everything had settled and go back to normal
We will still friend no matter how, please don't put anything in except friendship :)
SO the past u used to love me, i will forget it and treated it never happen before ya ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Again,
I edited some f my pictures
I LOVE MYSELF till i keep playing around with the software boz i not really familiar with it yet
Please don't mind i keep posting my 'zhi lian' pictures
HAHA
This is so Christmas feel
I LOVE Christmas
Christmas is coming very soon :)
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