Gathering @ Souled out

Very funny, only 3 of us (me, Justin and Chuman) went for gathering at Soulded out
This Henny FFK us and Gan couldn't back in time, so end up 3 of us
I thought after i went and met him i will be more happy (boz at least i get to see him)
But i ended up quite emo and sad
I hate myself of letting the old feelings came back when i started meeting him back
I guess i get emo on that night because they started talking about their GFs and i supposed to ask more to get more information, but i didnt do so. ( in my heart i wanted to know his story with his gf and all, so that i can know how important is the gf now in his heart, but i end up doing nothing there)
I was quite moody when they talking about GFs, so i just keep quiet and replied 'YA YA YA'
Deep in my heart, i felt sad and really didn't know what to say anymore
I should blame myself for letting him go last time, now ppl got gf already and i should not go disturb them right??
But, how come i miss him everyday??
I actually know i got not so big chance at all, since i hurted ppl before and ppl now happy with his gf
How come deep in my heart, i still wish to let him know --- i still have feeling towards him
I didn't really want him to dump his gf and be with me, but i just wish to let him know my feelings
Although i know the answer he will be telling me might hurt me, but i still wish to know the ans from his heart
How wish i never meet him back and the feelings never back, then i will not need to miss him like everyday and everynight
I hate myself everyday hoping for him to sms me, hoping for him to call me, hoping for him to miss me
When my friend told me, if he didnt sms u often means he don't have any feeling with also ( this hurted me, i wish he still has the feeling with me-- i know i am selfish)
Sometimes i can feel he still got feelings with me, but sometimes no...so..i want to know the answer actually
Of coz i wish the answer is YES
After the gathering i think for the whole night, what should i do and how should i let him know. If he knows i still loving him, what will he responses?? ...still be my friend or run away from me or avoid contact me anymore or just ignore me or SAY I LOVE U to me???
OMG..i know i am thinking too much now...i am really FAN over this thing

Anyway, before i meeting them, afternoon i went OneU for movie with my friend (my kai ko)
That day was the day i met the most ppl before my movie,

1st i met Wye Lum and his BF while i was walking towards a card shop, becuase my kai ko wanted to buy cards to his loves one..HEHE

2nd i met this ZAN RONG and one more F5 friend ( omg i forgot his name), i was so damn supper surprise when i met them. I was talking through phone while i was walking to CINEMA and ZAN RONG suddenly appear infront of me. Then, i straight away told J that his friend infront of me NOW..HAHA..then i passed my phone to ZAN RONG, and he said ' your gal now on my hand, so.....u know what to do la..LOL' . This was funny shit, i was like laughing non stop on that time. I really surprise this ZAN RONG knew that i was talking to J, because before i pass him the phone, he already saying HI to J. OMG..how come he can be so smart when i didn't tell him anything. How wish i can be shopping and go movie with J, then i saw ZAN RONG...LOL..this one would be more fun i guess..hahaha....