Second : The song about father
When the song played for the first time, i dont really have a very big feeling
but after the 'teacher' said something after it played, then only i started IN the song when it played the 2nd time.
My mind :
Remind me of my dad's love when he concerned me when i had my skin allergy and also when i argued with him on the phone 'when i heard he said {break up} and i cant accept he going to leave me alone behind' just the day before my graduation. I really have the phobia toward the graduation ceremony. From last time until now i dont really can feel the love from my dad and i also thought i dont really love my dad so much also. Until the song come in my mind, i felt actually my dad love me so much but just he dont really know how to express it out to me.
Still remember on that night i argued with him on phone.
I was so sad and my feeling uncontrollable till my dad heard of my voice.
He came in n took my phone away n talked to him.
Really sorry to him, i dont know my dad will take my phone away from me and talk to u.
Hope u can forgive him, boz he actually just love me and dont wan see i hurt.
Boz when my dad came in my room, so obvoius my eyes were red and my feeling was bad till the max
THe end, my dad also told me that if got anything must tell us, dont alw keep inside
But, the end i didnt tell my dad anything boz i keep everythg inside my heart
I really sorry to my dad i bluff him so manytimes boz of HIM. I know HE scared of my dad, in order to make HIM happy and comfortable, i will be the one who bluffing my dad and i go find him till late night n go his house.
SORRY DADDY...i know u love me
I know my dad actually accept HIM and let me go out with HIM most of times
During CNY also my dad willing to let HIM drive our car and follow our family members for lunch at somewhere. This shown my dad actually treated him as part of our family,also but everything alr past and HE already gone far far far away
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Third : The song about husband and wife
I thought i dont have any feeling when they played the song boz i aso not yet married and i dont hav bf also.
When the song played for the first time, i dont really have a very big feeling
but after the 'teacher' said something after it played, then only i started IN the song when it played the 2nd time.
My mind :
Remind me of my dad's love when he concerned me when i had my skin allergy and also when i argued with him on the phone 'when i heard he said {break up} and i cant accept he going to leave me alone behind' just the day before my graduation. I really have the phobia toward the graduation ceremony. From last time until now i dont really can feel the love from my dad and i also thought i dont really love my dad so much also. Until the song come in my mind, i felt actually my dad love me so much but just he dont really know how to express it out to me.
Still remember on that night i argued with him on phone.
I was so sad and my feeling uncontrollable till my dad heard of my voice.
He came in n took my phone away n talked to him.
Really sorry to him, i dont know my dad will take my phone away from me and talk to u.
Hope u can forgive him, boz he actually just love me and dont wan see i hurt.
Boz when my dad came in my room, so obvoius my eyes were red and my feeling was bad till the max
THe end, my dad also told me that if got anything must tell us, dont alw keep inside
But, the end i didnt tell my dad anything boz i keep everythg inside my heart
I really sorry to my dad i bluff him so manytimes boz of HIM. I know HE scared of my dad, in order to make HIM happy and comfortable, i will be the one who bluffing my dad and i go find him till late night n go his house.
SORRY DADDY...i know u love me
I know my dad actually accept HIM and let me go out with HIM most of times
During CNY also my dad willing to let HIM drive our car and follow our family members for lunch at somewhere. This shown my dad actually treated him as part of our family,also but everything alr past and HE already gone far far far away
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Third : The song about husband and wife
I thought i dont have any feeling when they played the song boz i aso not yet married and i dont hav bf also.
but, HIS face came out on my mind.
Really wan to know why is it like this on that moment.
I guess should be boz of the lyrics actually about how husband and wife happy together till the end and the wife will alw beside the husband no matter how the husband treated her.
Besides that, the most important sentence ' Husband will wan the wife to go to the heaven first before he left to the heaven boz he dont wan to see the wife crying sadly when he gone first'
This sentence remind me of HIM deeply , he did say the something same as this before to me. No matter how ' he will wan me to go to the heaven first before he leave me, boz he know i will be sad n crying every moment if he leave to the heaven earlier than me'. Till now, this sentence still stick in my mind, but i guess he alr forgot whatever he said to me.
My mind:
I really put my heart inside that relationship, so when he said he going to leave me, i cant accept it.
I will want to say sorry to HIM toward unaceptable break up. SORRY..i really not mean to trouble u when u alr dont need me anymore. really sorry for everything i did in the past.
For me, in the song make me realised actually i really think he will be my future husband and we will live together forever.
That's y no matter what he wan i will give as he wish. Remember i used to very 'manja'???
But i changed for HIM, Really appreacited u changed my bad habit.
Athough that time i not change immediately, alot of unhappy incidents happen before i fully changed my this bad habit, but i still hope he can feel how much effort i put in to change myself as he wish.
when on my way back to home, i was so depress and sad boz of the journey from cheras back to my home.
The course held at cheras, that's y along the way back home- our past keep coming out n show infront on my eye
I still remember along the journey back home, i felt so sad and lonely. But, last time when i back from his house, i never feel that..the onl things on my mind will be : i have will be i need to go home earlier , dont wan to let him worry..the first thing i need to do when i reached home is to let him know. I need to drive safely boz i dont wan him to worry. I miss his voice, so the first thing i reached home will be calling him.
But, now everything opposite, i dont kn y i need to be home, i dont know y i need to be safe, i felt the journey back home was so long. My tears alw out when i on my way back to home from cheras. This will be the onl feeling i got after he left me behind.
I also remember, last time when i wan to go his house, i never feel it is far or long journey.
Although it was jam, i still feel ok..boz the most important i can meet him after the long jam.
I never have the feeling 'long' and waste time during the journey to his house
But, now i will try my best not to hav the appointments there, but cheras is the only place i know that near ampang or whatever place. So, i will stil alw call my clients meet at cheras if they cant go PJ or KEpong.
Really appreacite he tought me the road at cheras, although now still not like super good on it, but at least got 60% i know the road there. Thanks so much to U
Actually my dream last time is happy together with him, and hold hand with him till we old age
I support him no matter what happen to him, no matter how sad he is, i will still wan to beside him
Boz i truely in love with him that time
Although i dont really know he truely in love with me before or not, but i believed he did.
At least he really treated me THE BEST when we were together.
Really thanks alot to ur love in the past.
I care our relationship so much, that's y until this stage i wish to keep our friendship closely.
I dont hope to lost u this closed friend that we used to love each other.
No matter how deep he hurt me, how bad he treated me this past few months, in my heart i really didnt angry him at all...i really forgive his everythg
I really hope no matter how, we will still the best close friend that can talk anything without pretending.
* actually about HIM i really got too much feeling on it until i cant finish writing it out, but i hope i can just keep it deep in my heart without disturbing him anymore *
In the end, i wan to tell him - thanks alot for ur love last time, thanks for letting me grow more mature throughtout our relationship, Thanks for everything. I really appreacited the love u used to give me. If u wan me to totally 100% forget u, i am sorry i really cant do it until now. the onl thing i can do is to put the love in a very deep place in my heart and hide it. Hope u understand, wont angry me boz of my love to u. If got chance i really wish u read whatever feeling i had for u and also telling me slowly as a friend to make me dont feel so hurt anymore. i really pretend until very tired already boz too many things remind me of u in my life .I really truely using my heart WISHing u all the best in ur life.
Really wan to know why is it like this on that moment.
I guess should be boz of the lyrics actually about how husband and wife happy together till the end and the wife will alw beside the husband no matter how the husband treated her.
Besides that, the most important sentence ' Husband will wan the wife to go to the heaven first before he left to the heaven boz he dont wan to see the wife crying sadly when he gone first'
This sentence remind me of HIM deeply , he did say the something same as this before to me. No matter how ' he will wan me to go to the heaven first before he leave me, boz he know i will be sad n crying every moment if he leave to the heaven earlier than me'. Till now, this sentence still stick in my mind, but i guess he alr forgot whatever he said to me.
My mind:
I really put my heart inside that relationship, so when he said he going to leave me, i cant accept it.
I will want to say sorry to HIM toward unaceptable break up. SORRY..i really not mean to trouble u when u alr dont need me anymore. really sorry for everything i did in the past.
For me, in the song make me realised actually i really think he will be my future husband and we will live together forever.
That's y no matter what he wan i will give as he wish. Remember i used to very 'manja'???
But i changed for HIM, Really appreacited u changed my bad habit.
Athough that time i not change immediately, alot of unhappy incidents happen before i fully changed my this bad habit, but i still hope he can feel how much effort i put in to change myself as he wish.
when on my way back to home, i was so depress and sad boz of the journey from cheras back to my home.
The course held at cheras, that's y along the way back home- our past keep coming out n show infront on my eye
I still remember along the journey back home, i felt so sad and lonely. But, last time when i back from his house, i never feel that..the onl things on my mind will be : i have will be i need to go home earlier , dont wan to let him worry..the first thing i need to do when i reached home is to let him know. I need to drive safely boz i dont wan him to worry. I miss his voice, so the first thing i reached home will be calling him.
But, now everything opposite, i dont kn y i need to be home, i dont know y i need to be safe, i felt the journey back home was so long. My tears alw out when i on my way back to home from cheras. This will be the onl feeling i got after he left me behind.
I also remember, last time when i wan to go his house, i never feel it is far or long journey.
Although it was jam, i still feel ok..boz the most important i can meet him after the long jam.
I never have the feeling 'long' and waste time during the journey to his house
But, now i will try my best not to hav the appointments there, but cheras is the only place i know that near ampang or whatever place. So, i will stil alw call my clients meet at cheras if they cant go PJ or KEpong.
Really appreacite he tought me the road at cheras, although now still not like super good on it, but at least got 60% i know the road there. Thanks so much to U
Actually my dream last time is happy together with him, and hold hand with him till we old age
I support him no matter what happen to him, no matter how sad he is, i will still wan to beside him
Boz i truely in love with him that time
Although i dont really know he truely in love with me before or not, but i believed he did.
At least he really treated me THE BEST when we were together.
Really thanks alot to ur love in the past.
I care our relationship so much, that's y until this stage i wish to keep our friendship closely.
I dont hope to lost u this closed friend that we used to love each other.
No matter how deep he hurt me, how bad he treated me this past few months, in my heart i really didnt angry him at all...i really forgive his everythg
I really hope no matter how, we will still the best close friend that can talk anything without pretending.
* actually about HIM i really got too much feeling on it until i cant finish writing it out, but i hope i can just keep it deep in my heart without disturbing him anymore *
In the end, i wan to tell him - thanks alot for ur love last time, thanks for letting me grow more mature throughtout our relationship, Thanks for everything. I really appreacited the love u used to give me. If u wan me to totally 100% forget u, i am sorry i really cant do it until now. the onl thing i can do is to put the love in a very deep place in my heart and hide it. Hope u understand, wont angry me boz of my love to u. If got chance i really wish u read whatever feeling i had for u and also telling me slowly as a friend to make me dont feel so hurt anymore. i really pretend until very tired already boz too many things remind me of u in my life .I really truely using my heart WISHing u all the best in ur life.
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