Last time when i got my permanent job with accounting, i think that was bored
But, now i kind of want to go back to the job boz it was really relaxing and wont be stress like now
I stopped that accounting job, mostly boz of him and also my mummy
I wished to hav bright future, more time in the future for family and more money for mummy and my own future family
But, what do i get now?
Still using mummy's money for like travel expenses :(
I dont even effort to pay my own traveling boz i dont really have alot of customers on my business now
I followed what manager said selling using heart and always think of the customer's point of view
How come people who simply sell will get more sales than me??? when i am the one who used the heart to sell
In the morning, manager just told me what one of the top manager share in his talk :
We should not complain others ,we only can blame ourselves not doing enough
We should not compare with others boz we only need to focus on our own goals
We shoudl plan and think what make us fail, then continue with all the new strategy to move on
*but i guess i dont really know how to plan for myself, that's y i fail ...*
After all this thoughts came inside my mind, i felt so sorry to my mummy...
She paid me to study to get a degree but now i dont even give her money --i still as a failure and using mummy's money
Why do i come to this world for? to waste my mummy's money and she will be old one day and i really wish i have the ability to take care her well
I really hope to work well in this business boz i cant let my mummy dissapointed with me
The whole day depressing and sad while talking to mervynn when my client ffk me at the ss2 McD
Sitting alone there before he came, thinking what should i do to earn more for my mummy
Sitting alone there blaming myself not doing enough
SO, i start calling anyone i can when they came into my mind for future appointments " but some dont pick up at all--kind of dissapointed"
Sitting alone there with my Sundae RM3.15
Everyday i spending money like water, but i dont even earn a single cents for this day
Feeling lonely with the sundae :(
The whole day no energy to work and talk boz of the all the thought i had
Besides that, there was also one thing very important came in my mind while i was thinking hard
"how much do i worth per hour???"
RM 30 or RM 40 or RM 50??
At this current stage -- i guess i worth nothg 'not even a single cents"
What should i do to make myself more happy and move on without regret
I really need someone's shoulder at this moment of time
I felt like crying on his shoudler and letting him concern and care
But...i know it is impossible now :(
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