Today will be the day i follow my plan not to keep in touch with him anymore
Although my heart very pain and i really miss him deeply until now, but i need to follow my plan till the time i can really put him down
( boz i guess this is the best way to be his true friend again in the future, mayb in the future we will back together again boz of fate.....I wish to)
Wish everyone will wish me all the best on this
I wish the end, me n him will be best friend last time at least
I really lost of focus on my work for this 2 days
I will be disappointed my manager if she know i such a failure like this boz of all the emotional feeling
I HAVE to go back working hard on tomorrow n TRY my best to get over with him
N keep telling myself....i will treat him as friend
( n i guess my another part of my mind or heart will be hoping him to come back....)
Tomorrow will be his birthday and i decided not to wish him
But, i will wish him in my heart 'HAppy Birthday Dear'
Really will support him in everything through my true heart
I have to BLOCK him on msn in order to fulfill the 'no contact rule' with him
If i am ready i will start to be his friend again
HOpe he wont mind i sudd lost of control again and do all this stupid things again while he alr start accepting me as friend
(boz i really scared in the future i will do something to make him further away from me while i am not ready yet. I learnt alot of other ppl articles and comments from internet, hope all those will be helping me around with this)
Really need support from everyone on this period of time
Hope everyone will pray for me with my this decision :)
Of coz i believe my cousin and best friends will support me in this.
Thanks alot *muacks*
* wont be updating about the Generation of Life Part 3 till my mood toward that post back
* I really HATE my lost of focus on my work and everything..i dont wan to screw up my life boz of him, but he himself living so happily now. I wan to make him happy to know i aslo happy boz i grow mature all boz of him.
* sudd hav such decision also boz i listen to a client i just met saying ' dont ever listen to anyone, just follow whatever u like to do..this will be helping u to get back urself'. I have 2 signals to tell me to using the no contract rule today, so i need to use it and i wish it helps me along my way.
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