Another baking day - chocolate cupcakes

Today we tried baking the 2 different flavour of Chocolate cupcakes
Why 2 different??? What was different inside the cakes???
First, it was called CHOC CHIP
looked not as dark as the second cupcakes
Second, it was called TRIPLE CHOC
looked darker due to the chocolate pieces added in


This was the CHOC CHIP. I know it looked not fluffy enough. This is because we added the milk chocolate which making the whole thing so watery ( supposed to add.... milk chocolate drops). But, OMG..what is milk chocolate drops??? I thought it was the same...So, Joey keep complaining it was my mistake T.T sorry la.i bad at all this i told u so many times already.


This was the second : TRIPLE CHOC, which was more successful..LOOK more professional..HAHA

This was the topping for the CHOC CHIP, but we used it for both. We don't understand why the topping we made always so much and wasted most of the portion we already mixed. WASTING MONEY and WASTING FOOD... so the end, we just did a topping for both. SMART

As a result of the watery CHOP CHIP. LOOK bad..not like cupcakes at all, but the taste was not bad.. NOT i just praising myself, but really taste ok for me.

Nahhh....2 different colour right???? do you know which one is the CHOC CHIP which one is the TRIPLE CHOC ???

This were all the small cupcakes we tried to bake. Without thing to support for the shape. SO the end, the whole thing came out quite ugly and...FUNNY..HAHA
At least we tried something new with our creativity...HAHA...tried to make myself happy no matter what :)
Joey decorated this before she bring this home because don't want to waste the icing (topping) which left over.
I decorated this with heart. I thought of giving this to my friend ' Mervynn" who birthday on 30 NOVEMBER. Anyway, i lazy to bring to him and fated not to give also. You know why?? Mummy took some of the words away to auntie already. SO too bad for HIM. NO more present for him. But at least i took the first step to do this , took down pictures and wanted to show him one day as a present. HAHA
Hope you all can read the words i decorated.

Last, this looked like muffins i know. After adding more chocolate chips inside the cakes, this was the result which looked like muffins. Joey kept telling me want to do muffins, so the end SHE DID IT.. HAHA....quiet sweet man. due to the over supply of chocolate inside the cakes

After baking really tired. Felt great when people said good about my cupcakes and felt appreciated. After long hours of baking session should be tired and no more times for being sad, but the end i was still went back to the lonely mood which i miss him too. Wanted to let him try too and telling him all of this for him from my heart. By the way, i know i think too much for all this stupid thing again and again. I should love MUMMY not U anymore...

Looking forward to forget

Small updated about yesterday :

Got this from Carmen as souvenir because she back from Vocation ( Hong Kong)
She is a very nice friend who always buy us souvenir no matter where she went for holidays
THANKS CARMEN
Anyway, HK will be the place i miss so much and hate so much because of someone
Really looking forward to forget him and really wish he never come to my life before
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Just back from appointment at Cheras Leisure Mall
The guy wanted me to meet him at Wong Kok Restaurant, OMG..i dont kn where is it located
So, i was walking around the leisure mall to get the place while carrying my heavy laptop
By the way, the end i found the place

While i talking to the guy half way, OMG ........ i saw a guy opposite me wearing a shirt which HE had it too and i thought was him..I was like 'OMG..dont tell me he was there.....with a gal'. I know i not suppose to be surprise or anything, but the shirt reminded me of him. One day, he will also with his gal appear in front of me, if we still meeting each other in the future. Normally i dont really looking around while i was explaining my plans or chatting with clients. But, the shirt caught my attention and i lost my mind for few seconds. Actually the guy was at the opposite round having his lunch with the gal ( the place HE brought me for lunch before too). I didnt purposely check out who was there or will he be there or not, just accidentally saw something that caught my attention unintentionally.

By the way, i passed by his house while i need to U-turn back to the round i suppose to get home. I saw his sis's car was here, which means his sis's family are here. Quite missing old times that i enjoying all the gathering with his sis's family. His mother's birthday will be on 4 DEC, i guess the sis came here to celebrate together since it was school holidays now. Didn't know why my tears always out when i passed by his house and my heart just pain. On the way back home, i just kept asking myself, " really wish i never know him and never with him, then my life wont be so unhappy and sad. I know i did have all the enjoy moments with him in the past." If the past brings the sadness NOW, i wish i never have the happy moments before. Then, now i actually still the old me who always enjoy happiness with friends and family.Won't be like now, keep asking 'WHY WHY WHY...he needs to come interrupt my life and leave when i need him the most?? '.
I know everyone told me, at least u got the happy moments with him before, so no need to be upset or regret to be with him. Just remember the happy moments and let him go now. But, can someone tell me that the short term happy moments in the past that brought me sadness now will continue how long??? How come everything related to him still so fresh in my memories???
If someone who knows me well, i actually won't give a shit feeling to people who hurt me last time. Just ...HE was the only one hurts me so deep till now...Already like....almost 5 months he left me alone, but i still feel the hurt as fresh as just happen yesterday.

Public Holiday ..WoHoo

Today early in the morning i woke up to confirm my appointments
(at first i had 2 appointments at 1pm and also 3pm @ Cheras ..Place that i %^%(^&^*(&#$^* HATE )
The end, the 1pm appointment changed to next day, so i just postponed the 3pm appointment too, because i wanted to go steamboat with mummy and get some CHOCOLATE CUPCAKES ingredients for Sunday :). Besides that, the most important was because i lazy to purposely drive all the way to Cheras on today and also tomorrow
Anyway, the end i ended up at MiZi Shabu-Shabu [ with mummy, grandmother, uncle(ah wan) , auntie (his wife) and their son (ah shyuen) ]

MiZi Shabu-Shabu


This is the lunch set Promotion : ONLY rm 9.90
This set is more VEGE...i had this today

This is another set Promotion : ONLY rm 9.90 too
With Pork...This is what i want, but mummy ordered wrongly :(
Anyway, I still enjoyed the food
My grandmother had this for her lunch

Let's see the original picture when they served
Look the same right?? HAHA

This was mine. The original picture, but some i already thrown inside the soup
All of us had our own personal pot for our own steamboat as below :

We went to Carefour after our lunch. We spent like rm 170++ for all the stuffs
Enjoying shopping with mummy, no matter where we go - just LOVE mummy
Sometimes not the place we going makes me happy, but just the person who besides me makes me feel 'happy', 'comfortable' and 'enjoying'
LOVE mummy so much so much so much
I know mummy love me very much too
She also bought me a laptop's bag, which i requested. I need a nicer laptop's bag for me to carry since i will carry my laptop around very soon while i working. Although my laptop's surface looks KIDDY...hahaha..but i still need my laptop so much so much ...*muacks*

Cost us RM 45 ( with one year wanranty)
I was thinking is that expensive? should i get it from PC fair??
But i am not going to PC fair alsoT.T how to get it?
*Thanks mummy now my laptop got his shirt*

We went to saloon and washed our hair after we back from Carefour
Happily waiting for the night outing with friends at 'Library"
We planned to go 'Little Penang' to have our dinner first, then we head toward to 'Library'
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After preparation, i went to pick up C and we went to The Curve and had dinner at Little Penang
Cost me RM 20. The food was so so...NO pictures becuase i shy to take infront of them, since they all just keep gossiping around old friends
Then, after dinner, we walked around The Curve, there actually alot of nice Christmas decoration..OMG..i wanted to take pictures with nice decoration background, but friends all were shy to do so and they wanted to walk around only ( sometimes with ppl who not the same interest, really hard to communicate..If i were with my cousins or priscilla or someone who have same interest with me, then there will be totally different case - 100% confirm there will be alot of nice pictures taken)

When we reached Library, we planned to get a table to sit down , drink and take pictures, but everything just not smooth as we thought
Library was full of ppl, actually only place that with nice decoration FULL, others so not nice to sit
When i step in, i just felt that actually Library not so nice as i thought, just normal restaurant with nice decorations.
The end, we managed to get a nice seat, so turned off the plan and moved to TGIFriday
"OMG...Marcus really thought i wanted to come and meet me..i thought he said he just will say hi to me, if he at Library..kind of annoying actually to communicate with people who i dont really care. I told him that we not going to LIbrary already boz my friends all just want a quiet place that can chit chat. He still couldn't understand and wanted us to go TTDI plaza for clubbing. NOt i dont want to go, but i wont go alone with him OK....I rather stay with my friends - although boring conversation."

The top view :

This cost me RM 25.90
introduced by C
Which i think damn expensive, but i don't know what to drink already *bored*

This was C's drink and behind was her fries

Actually there was 5 person there, but we didn't take any pictures on tonight
Wasted my effort to put on make up nice nice to CLUBBING at first, but the end..the whole plan screw up by few people in the group [ some said want to go home earlier, some said want quiet place, some said sleepy - only me and mervynn were fliexible ]
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So, i got home and camwhore then .....
HAHA..don't want to waste my effort of tonight

Looking at the 'dog' doll and wanted to kiss it
The dog actually represent HIM
We bought from HK and i kept this as him and he kept another 'gal' dog as me
wish the dog still with him and he will still miss me

Fnally got to kiss HIM
Actually just posting..HAHA..
MISS HIM SO MUCH SO MUCH

Make up of today, which makes no different from other day i guess.. HAHA Actually just my usual make up

2 pictures with my smiling face
Which i don't even know i am smiling from my heart or just posting
Can anyone tells??
I guess I already lost the real smile from my heart from the day he gone


Looking inside the mirror and asking myself
When will i be happy as last time and forget about someone who i not suppose to put in my heart???
MIRROR MIRROR MIRROR on the wall
Can u tell me when can i do so???


I didnt manage to get any answer from the mirror, so the end i was upset
T.T

Actually today the outing was not the great one, my plan was to drink till...drunk
But, the end...we just ended up at the TGIFriday where i gave surprise birthday party to HIM last year
Reminded me of HIM who i put a lot of love in the relationship and HIM
By the way, my cousin ( MICHELLE) was back, wish to go out with her and enjoy clubbing together
Besides that,i also will be enjoying baking different flavour of cupcakes with my another cousin (Joey)
Thanks cousins :)
Darling will be back soon too...waiting waiting waiting

NO matter how, i still have friends, cousins and family with me ...

25-26 NOV PruBusiness Insurance

This 2 days went to PruBusiness Insurance
Learning how to handle big business and big clients
People who attend were all more than 2 years at the business, except me..who so new
I actually replace my senior only
But, i learned alot there which repeat what i did learn from Degree too
TAX LAW..omg..my beloved subject...can say so..
Which i thought i can score on, but the end....so hard to score for this TAX LAW paper..
Many people failed this paper too...OF COZ not me...

I not really 100% concentrated on the class, but at least i went the for the2 days class..HAHA
The second day, i ran out for appointment at the lunch time at Paparich @ PJ ( nearby toyata factory)
The most happy thing was...i no need to pay for my lunch, my client treated me because he was late for around 1 hour..OMG

During the break time...

Reminded me of my college life which i miss the most all the time

I still remember we at LT1 studying and u wrote me some love message to awake me during the lecture

I still remember i always printed the lecture notes for u and u didn't even need to worry no notes when u had me that time, not as ur friend (alex)

Trusts

Which i studied at TAX LAW and CPL

Accounting did apply to my current job

At least what i studied not wasted just like this

Tax Law - reminded me that he brought me homemade soup to my house at night just the the night before my Tax LAW exam

The end i was damn touched by HIM

This was the tea break food during 3pm on the first day

Others i forgot to take picture

The donuts and the don't know what it called were sucks..

First day, breakfast - nasi lemak
Tea Break - as the picture
Second day, Breakfast - mihun
Tea Break - some kuih kuih...also so so only
*overall only the breakfast taste OK..

Finally i did cupcakes

Telling everyone that i wanted to bake the cupcakes like for so long already
Finally, today i did it

Really thanks for my cousin help, because i know i cant do it well if i am alone (since i lack of baking experience)
At least, today we did it quite well for everything *muacks*

Let's start with all the materials :

After mixing everything, then become like this :

Sadly, the first time failed due to 'too much' of butter

Supposing to be 225ml, but putted 250g (the whole butter) because we messed up 250g = 250ml... [didnt not read nicely before mixing it - too excited to start]

So the end, the failed cupcakes as below :

let's zoom it....( we tried abit : as the picture)
Tasted not bad, just too....oily and soft

Never mind, we didnt give up after the failed cupcakes
We tried put more flour to make it done since the ingredients actually for 12 cupcakes ( we managed to bake for 18 cupcakes)

This will be the success cupcakes we did : ( not bad right??? )

Then, we continued mixing the icing sugar for the topping part
This was how i looked when i trying hard mixing the icing sugar with butter

We did plain and pink icing for topping :)

Decorating the cupcakes with heart:

The first 2 cupcakes were my decoration :

This was my cousin (joey) cupcakes decoration :

3 cupcakes with full decorations :

Finally, cupcakes with decorations
Others, no decorations because the topping too sweet
My family members and relatives all having diabetics
(so they tried my cupcakes without the topping)

Really enjoyed baking the cupcakes and happy
Although, the end alot of things need to wash up and a lot of ants come and disturb
At least i did it already ( because i promised him to bake it for him like long time ago since i bought the equipments )
Although now he not the one who tasting it or having it, but at least i did it for myself
Happy hearing people who said the cupcakes were nice :)
My aunties said it were nice and looked nice too...

Finally i deleted him at FB

I become so super brave to do it while we already started to becoming friend
Everyone will be asking...why should i do so, if already starting friendship????
After i deleted him, i also don't know why i need to do so...n confuse for sometimes
At the end, i realized that the main purpose should be i dont wan just be friend and friend that got a weird weird feeling
I felt suffer with all this feeling..i am tired

SO, finally i did it
I deleted him and telling myself not to check his FB out so often anymore
Actually i dont wan to know his stuff anymore until he find me mayb
But, GOD just keep giving me chance to click on his profile everyday once or twice after i deleted him
For example :
Yesterday
I actually didnt want to click on his profile, but i saw something related to him at someone's page
SO, the end..of coz i cant control myself not to click on his face while he alr appear infront of me
Today
I was never think of clicking on his page at all while i checking out FB
As usual, i checked this gal's FB because i usually check out her blog and FB everyday just for fun
Sudd...i saw she commented on his FB..OMG...last time also never
WHAT is this...???
Of coz i cant control and i clicked on his profile
The end...found out he going to swimming and inviting friends there
But. the end..the swimming pool closed and only can swim after 2 weeks( which would be end of his exam time)
DO u know how much i wish to comment on his FB and tell him..I LOVE swimming too..
Last time i never go swimming before with him too
OMG..i really want to go..but..i know he wont happy if i go T.T
No matter how he feels, not my problems
WHAt i feel should be more important NOW

I become more confident boz someone at the 'getting back ex' forum got back his gf after 3 months already which make me decided to delete him from FB
I should learn from him that he tried hard to not knowing anything from the gf
LEarning hard for this........which i think i already took the first step at least :)
Wish me all the best.....
I just wish to get someone i love and the person love me as much as possible too
Mayb he not the one, but i will be waiting the special one to come :)

Subang carefour, USJ summit , then UNO !

Went for appointment at Subang carefour with a banker
He was quite friendly and hopefully he will give me alot of referrals as he said he dont mind to help others..HAHA....( but his father is doing Hong Leong Assurance and friends doing insurance too. Besides that, he also sometime selling HL insurance but he said he just sell when ppl request that. SO still have the chance to get his contacts and also convince him to buy Prudential )
Anyway, he really friendly and he treated me 'chocolate chips caremel' from Starbucks
(fuck...remind me of him who ordered that for me while i was rushing for my audit assignment at college time)

After that, i went to meet Jeff ( manager's nephew) at USJ summit.

At first both went there for the same purpose but the end, both of us doing different thing
What different thing???
First we wanted to go there for TAROT...only rm10 and he tried before, so he introduced me there since i keep noisy there said i want to play TAROT
But, the end..i saw a potential person can let me share my plan, then i went for it and talked for like around 2 hours...F...the stupid thing i did - forgot to take his contact number..STUPID
NVM...going again tomorrow since we not yet play the TAROT
(Actually i shy to play infront of the nephew boz i dont wan to let him know i already broke up with Ben, scared......something la..HAHA.)
The most important is i dont wan he know my things so much

WOndering why i keep wan to know my future or playing the TAROT??
Actually i just wan to know my love life and also my work
LOVE
I wan to know will he still back to me?? I miss him like crazy when the stupid FB dont let me view his page. I was so emo and sad...I thought he deleted me. I thought he hated me so much and dont wan to friend me anymore. I kind of depress on that moment. Then,......only i know..i still love him so much. I really wan to know...what can i do??? and do we still have the fate to be together again???
Hopefully the Tarot will help me release my tention on this and also solve my problems
If the end result is he not the right one, i would like to know when will be my Mr. Right appear because i am tiring of loving someone who dont even care my feeling

WORK
Want to know when will i be successful and am i suitable to be in this insurance line??? WHat should i do in order to be successful in the future??? how long do i need to get my first BMW and will my success help my future husband well??? Will he support me??? and more........
If the end result is i not suitable, then what line should i in to be successful???

First time here: UNO @ USJ
The food quite nice and the most important is....i no need to pay :)
Manager paid boz she actually belanja her clients..so i was there too while she asking the nephew

The Menu

The specials of the day
Crabmeat spaghetti
(one of the client ordered this - really nice as the client said)
sorry for the blur pictures boz didnt bring camera along, only snap it using my phone

This is the deep fried chicken
(ordered by the nephew)

Nice cup.. :)
( plain water ordered by manager and her mother)

The most important : MINE
LOok Great???
Nice too...hehe
Called : SeaFood Platter

This was my drink : Lemon Lime Bitter

Mushroom with Breads

The salad

The bills......not clear... T.T
My hp's camera sucks


The total amount : RM 269.10
6 persons there and my manager only ordered salad without the main course
Boz she was damn full this whole day ( more accurate should be this few days - alot of events to attend)

Some food no pictures boz clients's food
SHY to snap pictures infront of clients
ANyway, whole day feel good and wish i dont miss him so often