Finally i called HIM

Finally i did it...
After few days of straggling i finally got confident to call him
Of coz with my darling support also..THANKS darling
I actually expected he will say NO to me...
SO the end result i not so SHOCK or not so...sad boz of the ans he gave
I am SAD boz of the tone he using while he talking to me
At first i was so excited to call him and i practiced for around 10 times the conversation i supposed to talk to him

When finally i got the confident to call, i heard a lady's voice when someone picked up
Guess how i felt on that moment??
In my mind, i was thinking ' dont tell me is the new gf, y he cant ans his call but need the new gf to ans??'
But, the end....actually the lady was his mother
So, i was like so happy and talked to the mother awhile
The mother asked me ' hey..how r u?? how r ur work???' after she know was me
Then i answered ' good....my work ok ok lo...how about u auntie??'
She answered ' good..:) '
So friendly and great conversation i ever had with auntie. The end..she said she will call the son call me back after he reached home boz now he driving. Auntie also told me that they just back from somewhere dinner..i cant hear clearly the place boz i was too shock on that moment.

After mayb 20 min, he called back.
At first i still worry will he call back or not, but the end he really called back
But, i didnt pick up boz i was downstair and i rush up to ans the call, but off already
My heart's beats were fast like shit....boz i dont kn what to talk on that point after i pick up
The end, i waited for few min then i called him back
When he picked up ' yes..what happen??'
I was soscared boz of his tone...so scary and quite loud for me if compared to last time
I was so nervous already and talked till like so scared of him (but at least i did pretend to be happy and nothg happen)
I said ' oh..no la..actually just wan to ask u tomororw free or not?'
The he said ' Not free, why???? i going to stay at library study tomorrow, so why??'
I said ' no la..just want to meet for awhile in the afternoon'
He answered 'oh..why ?'
Then i answered ' no la..just wan to have a tea with u..meet up awhile only, but is ok la..u not free so never mind la, mayb next time or next week when u free and i also free la '
The he said ' oh like this, then after my exam la...'
So i said ' oh ok...then contact again..bye'
Then i forgot he said bye or not...or yes or not...i just off already
He sound annoyed by me...but i just asking normal thing
He sound not so happy

In the conclusion, i didnt unhappy boz of his rejection or he not keen to meet up with me..since i already prepared he going to say that. BUT, i not happy boz his talking tones to me...WHY do he need to be so unhappy when talked to me?? or i think too much?? or mayb this is his normal talking tone ( but if gf he sound softer only)
I am so depress and sad

*i dont know whether am i bluffing myself or trying to make myself more happy....i am happy at least he made the efford to call me back, not sms me asking me what happen ---does it really sound abit better??? *
*besides that, at least he said he will meet me up after his exam?? at least he still willing to meet up with me...this point is what my friends told me after i told them about my sad emotion on that moment. Me myself didnt realised this point*

* a small stupid thing in my mind....I really miss his mother's love..today heard her voice, it sounds so sweet and happy to tone after knowing that is me. Her birthday coming soon on december, i wish to bake her cupcakes if my cousin willing to bake it with me when she is back..hehe...OF coz...i also will bake it for my mother boz her birthday on dec too...His mother at dec 4 and my mother at dec 8 *
sound crazy isn't it??? but wish to get support from people who follow my blog on this :)