Got this from Carmen as souvenir because she back from Vocation ( Hong Kong)She is a very nice friend who always buy us souvenir no matter where she went for holidays
THANKS CARMEN
Anyway, HK will be the place i miss so much and hate so much because of someone
Really looking forward to forget him and really wish he never come to my life before
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Just back from appointment at Cheras Leisure Mall
The guy wanted me to meet him at Wong Kok Restaurant, OMG..i dont kn where is it located
So, i was walking around the leisure mall to get the place while carrying my heavy laptop
By the way, the end i found the place
While i talking to the guy half way, OMG ........ i saw a guy opposite me wearing a shirt which HE had it too and i thought was him..I was like 'OMG..dont tell me he was there.....with a gal'. I know i not suppose to be surprise or anything, but the shirt reminded me of him. One day, he will also with his gal appear in front of me, if we still meeting each other in the future. Normally i dont really looking around while i was explaining my plans or chatting with clients. But, the shirt caught my attention and i lost my mind for few seconds. Actually the guy was at the opposite round having his lunch with the gal ( the place HE brought me for lunch before too). I didnt purposely check out who was there or will he be there or not, just accidentally saw something that caught my attention unintentionally.
By the way, i passed by his house while i need to U-turn back to the round i suppose to get home. I saw his sis's car was here, which means his sis's family are here. Quite missing old times that i enjoying all the gathering with his sis's family. His mother's birthday will be on 4 DEC, i guess the sis came here to celebrate together since it was school holidays now. Didn't know why my tears always out when i passed by his house and my heart just pain. On the way back home, i just kept asking myself, " really wish i never know him and never with him, then my life wont be so unhappy and sad. I know i did have all the enjoy moments with him in the past." If the past brings the sadness NOW, i wish i never have the happy moments before. Then, now i actually still the old me who always enjoy happiness with friends and family.Won't be like now, keep asking 'WHY WHY WHY...he needs to come interrupt my life and leave when i need him the most?? '.
I know everyone told me, at least u got the happy moments with him before, so no need to be upset or regret to be with him. Just remember the happy moments and let him go now. But, can someone tell me that the short term happy moments in the past that brought me sadness now will continue how long??? How come everything related to him still so fresh in my memories???
If someone who knows me well, i actually won't give a shit feeling to people who hurt me last time. Just ...HE was the only one hurts me so deep till now...Already like....almost 5 months he left me alone, but i still feel the hurt as fresh as just happen yesterday.
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